今天~明天~明年

明天是2006的最后一天。。。 又过了一年，我又老了一岁！I've been through alot this year... 我失去了我最爱的人，我看到了人的本性。We spent 2 years of bliss together. Inspite of all those heated arguements, nasty words, I loved you with all my heart & soul. We were in love & everything else didn't matter. That is all in the past. You made a choice & it was not us. I tried many ways to change your mind but it did not work. In the end, I chose to respect that decision & move on.

For the first time in my life, I didn't sleep for god knows how many days, I skipped plenty of meals & I cried plenty of tears... All of that in exchange for an important lesson in my life. The people who care most are usually those I neglect. 最不脐眼的人才是最重要的！ Although it was tough, thanks to those people who believe in me, I managed to recover... I can never be the same again. No more happy-go-lucky, I-don't-give-a-damn attitude... 我会学着如何做一个更好的我。

Another semester has passed! Didn't put in enough effort during all those lectures but I've managed to scrape through. I will find that determined part of me & put more effort in this coming semester. It has been tough & it will get tougher but I will work harder! 我们一起加油吧！只要你相信你做得到，you are half way there.

Thank you, my dearest friends & family! Thank you for not running away when I'm in tears (i know it's a terrible sight!). Thank you for those words of encouragement. Thank you for cheering me up! Thank you for believing in me. Most important of all, thank you for being part of my life.
因为有你，我的生命才完整。
joyzz & her 8 friends = plenty of fun filled days

What is wrong with me?

不开心。。。Whatever i do, I can't seem to put my heart & soul into doing it... I need to Focus... 我到底这么了？？ 心不在焉！~WIERD~ Perhaps i should just reboot my brain... Tinkle with the wiring & I'll be me again... I wanna be able to put my heart into every laugh, every tear, every bit of anger... Not just be numb... 以前潇洒的我呢？不见了吗？Where did i leave that part of me? It's just a lame posting...

The holiday...

Just leave everything behind to start finding myself in a place where nobody knows me? What a good idea... Will try that out when I have a chance... haha... The hoilday, what a great way to have one. Anyway, i love that movie! You guys gotta catch it! Yummy people, great scenes!

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY 21st cha cha 雄！Have a great day ahead k! Cya when you book out k?

Looked up the camping permit thingy.. It's on the National parks board webby... We can only camp at:
~Changi Beach Park
~East Coast Park
~Pasir Ris Park
~Sembawang Park
~West Coast Park
~Pulau Ubin

One part of the site says:"A camping permit is not required if you are camping on weekends and public holidays." Which means we do need a permit on weekdays but...

The FAQ says: What must I do to camp overnight in the parks?
Though permits are no longer needed for camping. We encourage all campers and park users to exercise courtesy toward others in carrying out their activities.

Hmmm...So what shall it be?? Lost... Please update your webby... You are getting me confused... Can't find that form to get permit anyway... so perhaps we don't need one?

Up next check out the death note showtime....

一个人的圣诞节。。。

Dear all! Merry Chirstmas! This is a time to remember to treasure all the important people around you! To note that they have always been around you when you need them...

To these people who are essential in my life, who makes it complete:
Thank you once again! From the bottom of my heart i wanna say " LOVE YOU, GUYS!" May you guys & your families have good health & truckloads of love!

Jin: Everything will work out just fine... Just take sometime to find what you really want...

Eve: It's time to have fun! Who needs boyfriends? We just need cute guys! Muackz! luvya to bits...

Li ling: Glad that everyone is unharmed... Let's meet up soon k?

Jean: The beauty of being single... You have showed me how it works.. hee

10: Gosh... We've gotta go back to school... Eeewww.... Let's have more fun before hell comes!

"木木"熊: Hee.. Kept you up all night.. Had fun on your b'day bash! Hope we've made it unforgetable! Won't get you drunk le lah.. I will try hard not to disturb you so much!

勇铨：Had plenty of fun with you people & of course there'll be more to come! Wonder when wil your gorgeous babe come to you?

Swee yee: Wow! Christmas in thailand! hmmm... Enjoyable trip i guess... (green with envy! I wanna go too... SHOPPING!)Missed you like hell.. now i do realise your importance!!! 原来你是那么重要的！


Muackz... With loads of hugs & kisses...

Why did it end up like that? Had a great day despite that!

不知道从何时开始，你对我有了这样的想法！我对你来说就只有这样的利用价值吗？我是你消遣的工具吗？对你是彻底的失望。。。真的以没有什么话好说了！不想再听到关于你的东西。。。你真的让我觉得很累！我受够了！Whatever happens to you is none of my business... You really do turn me OFF!!! I can't believe those words actually came out of your mouth! GOSH! You had the cheek to say that... 我认输了！

When Lot 1 for a KTV session with Miss Chua today.. Realy enjoyed myself though there was a tiny incident... The whole building blacked out. Scared me... haha... But luckily there were two of us. If i happened to be alone, What would i do?? Girl thanks for the birthday song k! Happy belated birthday to you too.... Hope you like the present... Thank you to that nice lady at Kbox too... Thanks for making it so sweet, lighted two candles in the room... haha...

Coffee & cake, best buddies & cute kids(+ dirty doggy) = wonderful combination...
A strong seabreeze & shorts not = good combination...
To sum it all up, I'll hang around with my best buds at coffee bean, talk & crap than to be bothered by some nonsense people! 心情不好出去兜兜风，说说话是最好的治疗！因为有了有趣的人就会把不开心的都忘掉！听着好听的歌，吹着冷冷的风，看这开心的朋友，一切事都忘了！It shall stay that way...

Gotta zzzzzzzz soon... My eyes can't stay open... Had a wonderful day! Thanks guys! sleep tight, sweet dreamz...

lazy, sleepy me...

hmmm... 最近的天气是最最适合睡觉的！！！ haha.. have been sleeping & lazing aroung for 2 days le... finally i decide to get my ass moving to town for dinner.. It's a pretty entertaining day actually... Poor YC had tears in his eyes while chewing his food... that poor guy is always sick... 隔两天就有新的病症。。。 What a poor boy.. Please take care of your health.. Anyway other than the chewing problem you look pretty fine to me.. haha... You & your stupid magic rope game.. Dumb of me... haiz.. I guess a con man never change his spots.. forgive you on account of that frozen yogurt lah.. I want my 冰淇淋 when you get well, k?

Anyway.. It' KTV with 蔡太太 tomorrow... so cya 蔡太！On friday it shall be a date with 滿城盡帶黃金甲... On saturday it'll be xiao xiong's 21st b'day bash!

Ps. When will we get that tent & go camping?? for those who dunno abt e idea, here's an update: we intend to gat a tiny bit of contribution from everyone to buy a tent & some food to go camping.. so exciting!!!

Pps. Lucy went to USA le.. Never tell any of us.. so mean of her!!! Boohoo...

Ppps. Won't be driving for awhile.. someone kissed my cutie car's ass! what a meanie!! Hope it'll be okie soon... i wanna drive to school... Btw, school's starting on 3rd january.. No more slacking!! must 加油！ I wanna be a grad next June..

classics.. people i love!

Bashful pics...

hmmm....

slept alot but i'm still so so tired... think i'm getting too lazy... gotta keep my butt going..

haha... had loads of fun @ my b'day bash.. though the attendance was pathetic but now i know that i can always have loads of fun with this few lovely, wonderful, gorgeous & handsome people...

又被放飛機。。。 doesn't feel good @ all... Gotta think what am i doing with my life.. I might want to do whatever i can for these people but are they wiling to do the same for me? Guess i've gotta treasure those people who really care for me... Whatever!?! 重要的是 i don't let these people down... the rest of them, it's kinda whatever... Perhaps i'm e one with the problem... lack of care & concern with their lives?

hmmmm... I'm getting lame...anyway, shall post e pics soon... i had tons of princesses & princes at my party.. don't worry k? i shall leave out all the paiseh ones. haha! If i do post them all, you guys would be the butt of the joke for a long time to come... thanks once again, for turning up & for e gift... muackz... luvya!

祝我生日快樂。。

Yippy... So happy... Ordered my gorgeous cake le... Wahahaha... Things seem to be going pretty smoothly for my birthday preparations... I'm so glad that all this people around me is helping me... Going shopping for chocolate later!! Still got plenty of barang to buy...

MUACKZ!! 愛你喔﹗﹗﹗

Ps. 陳勇銓先生﹐Thank you for e loan of that fountain.. muackz!
PPs. Dearest fairy godmother! Please ensure that this sunday (10th dec) is not a rainy day k?

tata! I'm going for a shower!!

What have i done?

This is juzt a form of expression
A way for people who care to know what's happenin'
It does not exist so that you can butt into my life
Reading this does not mean that you know me
so get out!!

Stop acting like i'm important
when your motive is not to see how i'm doing
It's to spy on the people aound me.
I want my freedom back!
The freedom to write as i wish
把我的自由還給我﹗﹗

祝我生日快乐。。。

生日礼物是什么？
生日party有谁来？
生日要吃什么？
好烦啊！！！

Hmmmm... You sound so sad! what happened? Care to share? What matters most is that you don't keep it to yourself... Sorry, didn't know you were unhappy eariler. Hope i didn't make your day worse! Cheer up, my friend!

Shocked...

Haiz.. got a shock of my life today... god... i was so sleepy (i still am) but i can't go back to sleep... haiz..

Don't you get it? I can't accept your gift? It's the thought that counts & I felt your sincerity. That is what that matters right? Will pass it back to you... I don't deserve it.. gosh.. I feel so sleepy now... nice weather to zzzzz....

Going to visit ice's grandma later... Gotta think of what i want for my birthday by tomorrow.. Actually, just want all my family & friends & their family to be healthy, happy & be able to enjoy life to the fullest!

如此困难的要求，我知道你们做不到。。。只想要你们快乐！ 因为你们快乐，我也会快乐。。。Cheers! muckz... Plenty of hugs & kisses to go around! (Mr tan will not get a hug cause he'll go "eeeee.... 你走开！！")

梦醒时，心好痛！

It hurts so bad now... I wanna say sorry! 《拥抱着 却格着最远的距离》I didn't mean to.. I wasn't thinking right at that point in time... I was dreaming but you were not in that sweet dream of mine... 很抱歉，但男主角并不是你。 是我错！我们也只能做一辈子的好朋友吧！

此刻从梦中惊醒的我是如此的心疼！对不起，伤害了你！我一早就该从梦中醒来。因为我的自私，然你受到了伤害。。。 真的很抱歉。。 没想过你对我还念念不忘。。。以为你和我的想法是一样的 but it's not! I really don't know what to say. It's all too late isn't it?

一辈子的好朋友~ 这句话让我好心酸。。。只因为我没勇气去面对！那就这样吧！也就只能做一辈子的好朋友。。。就算会心痛，就算眼泪会不由自主的落下， 我也会去面对！这是我的选择。。。

Ps. Thanks Mr Ee, for teaching us how to play pool..
have a good rest guys... muackz!

back from supper...

god... Had a paper prata with honey & a banana prata.. Yummy!!! so so so tired now... last task before i zzzzzzzzz..... is to edit my sis's report... gotta charge a fee for making me work OT.. i want to crawl onto my bed...

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz..........

Dreaming...

偶像剧看多了也会做梦的啦！I've been dreaming too often recently... Should wake up from my beautiful dream 了！ ANYWAY, I'M BACK!!!!

I spent like 700RM & i only came back with a head of curly hair, a pair of CUTE pokka-dot heels, a pair of GOLD flip flop & a couple t-shirts.. I also don't know where i spent the money..

WooHoo... A CUTE guy did my hair.. hahahahahaha... so so happy... Enjoyed e couple of hours doing my hair cause of that 亮仔！Anyway i think he didn't do a very good job lah.. Cause i look like a god damn AUNTIE now.... But he's forgiven cause he's cute... I believe what his 师父 say lah.. the curls will loosen out to be WAVES!! I certainly hope so...

我该从梦中醒来了！