may there b light...

juz woke up.. got a rude shock... there's no light in e bathroom.. crap.. had 2 bath in e dark.. bro was asking if i wanted candles & i was thinking.. yeah, sure.. get mi a bathtub filled with bubbles & rose petals. oh add a little champagne & chocolates too if there's any...

dawn: gal.. u take care k... shall visit ya tml.. gosh.. damn suai 4 tis 2 happen juz b4 e paper... take it as u have more time 2 study 4 e next paper ba.. muackz.. loads of hugs & kisses...

帅哥： haf fun in HK.. i can tell u r gg 2 drink, drink & DRINK... since ur career & how much u drink seems 2 b correlated tat might not b such a bad thing aft all.. haha... anyway say hi 2 ur mum & dad 4 mi.. & luck 4 ur preso.. if they do wan it in mandrin, do tell mi abt it so i can haf a gd luff!!! keke.. i'm so mean! will miss ya ALOT... muackz... loads of hugs & kisses... luvya! enjoy~

hmm..

remember sum not really happy stuff frm e past... feeling a little down... still wondering if wat i did was rt.. mayb i shld juz let it go.. wat's done is done! i can't undo any of tat.. if only - wat powerful words...

i'll stop feeling bad if things r beta... i'll smile frm e bottom of my heart if it gets beta 4 u.. i mean it... feeling guilty over wat has happened.. every1 thinks i'm rt but i can't help but think i cud haf done beta.. can't get over myself... i hope she got over it.. it's not a pleasant experience, tat's 4 sure..

smile joyzz smile... u've got examz 2 wori abt!

ACHE...

did i not slp well or did was i too enthusiastic abt having fun yday?? my back aches, my neck's kinda stiff... my brain's not working... ewww... wat a bad start...

PS: lucy, i think u really dun like mi alot huh?? u nv pick up my calls! start picking up my calls k!!! haiz.. i nv understand y u haf a fone in e 1st place... can nv get u on e fone.. BOO!!

stressed over shit! ARGH!!!!

j0yzz is fcuked! not gd wif examz, not gd wif my mum.. wat else am i not gd @??? everything????? I'm only gd @ having fun! tat's kinda wat every1 is gd @.. i think now i noe y every1 thinks i shld b a tai tai

Answer being: i'm only gd @ having fun... as having fun usually cost money... so i'm gd @ spending money BUT not gd @ making it... only tai tais get tat i guess... BUT tai tais r smart aft all... they manage 2 get a rich guy as their husband! ARGH!!
once again i shld start looking 4 a rich guy 2 get married 2... but den again... i think no rich guy wud wan mi.. RICH GUYS, come out, come out, wherever u r!!

haiz... messed up... FCUK!!! damn.. gg back 2 study... i'm not gd @ it but i'm gg 2 force myself 2 make sumthing outta it.. been lucky 2 pass so far.. luck can only take mi so far.. haven't been lucky recently.. so.. too bad... i chose 2 go 2 uni.. can only curse myself 4 thinking tat i can do tis shit!
不要问，只要信！
i believe i can & i will b able 2 do it?? i'm bad @ examz but I THINK I CAN DO IT, i guess~ whether or not tis moron can do tis shit she's gotta go 4 e stupid paper.. haiz...

帅哥！！ i'm writing abt u... so R-E-A-D....
u said spirits enter ur body e nite b4 ur examz or sumthing.. haf u got their contact no?? i kinda need their help... btw, sorrie 4 not being able 2 go 2 HK wif ya.. tell ur mum tat i'm 4 real... if u skip all e @#^%^ language, i'm really a "NICE" gal.. haha... i'm a KIND & SWEET dumb ass wif a "little" temper & a "tiny" bit of violence!! wahahaha.. enjoy ur HK trip... haf fun.. will spend more time wif ya, (yup! 帅哥, it's U i'm talking abt rite now!)aft tis dumb ass is over wif her crapy examz.. Zoo trip wen u get back- i remember... aft zoo mayb zouk?? fun is e only think i can think of.. haiz..

complicated

aft a long chat on e fone yday, i feel so frustrated... i feel 4 u... it hurts so much juz 2 hear it frm u, i can't imagine wat u haf been thru... I'm sad, angry, seriously PISSED (@ u 4 giving her e chance 2 break ur heart again, @ her 4 thinking tat she'll get away wif it!)!!!!!

ARGH!! how did sumthing so rite become so wrong?? how can 2 ppl say such similar words?? wen i heard abt it , it all sounds so familiar! baby, help urself... dun ask how r u gg 2 do w/o her, ask wat can u do w/o her! it takes courage 2 step away frm it all... it takes courage 2 leave ur comfort zone, aft e 1st step, everything will fall in2 place... it's amazing wat 1 can do wen u wan 2... i dunno how i did it either but having u definately helped!

baby, i'm so so sorry i can't spend more time wif u! aft my examz k! we'll look 4 a slacker job, go sun tanning, clubbing etc etc... i might not b able 2 hang out wif ya now but i'm still here... gif mi a call... feel like crying & i'll cry wif u & gif ya a BIG hug! wen u wanna haf fun i'll appear & add more fun 2 ur day! baby, u r stronger den u think, u haf yet 2 discover tat.. i'm still looking forward 2 e day wen u'll take tat 1st step & put it all in e past! remember, Time heals all wounds! no matter how much it hurts, i'll b there 2 help! jia you k!

YC: get well soon!! hope ur nose wun get bloodier den it already is! but if it does get worse, i think i noe wat u did.. haha.. muackz.. take care!

Eve: i stood in tat bloody Q for 1/2hr in 3" heels.. wrong attire @ e wrong time.. things i do 4 a sista! u owe mi 1... let mi c.. i wanna try e cheese cake @ e cheese cake cafe (east coast)! aft my stupid examz, ur treat (i dun care)!!!

lynn: chat chat chat, rot rot rot, eat eat eat! miss doing tis stuff wif ya... but think i gotta skip e eat eat eat part... i've a big butt.. sobz (-_-)

jin, 10, dawn: 加油吧！ 姐妹们，we can do it!!!!!

lucy: hmmm.... luck 4 ur paper! pls do start picking up my calls! looking forward 2 mit sign!! muackz.. hugz & kisses... dinner aft my examz! leave my a spot on ur ever bz schedule! owe u a b'day pressie!

fellow BF 0201s: eeee..... wud like a class gathering sumtime in may/june... will cook up a plan.. get back 2 u guys soon.. pls do come k! wanna c how u guys r doing now.. miss e times we had! muackz

I'm becoming a big butt monster!

haha... haf been eating alot of junk food 2 keep myself awake while studying...
alot of junk food + sitting there & "study" = bigger butt! more trouble balancing on 3" heels... e weather sucks anyway.. rain rain go away! rain & 3" heels is a bad combination! tried it today... kinda lucky i din fall flat (yet)!
bigger butt + rainy weather = time 2 get sum flat pumps!
bigger butt = new clothes? can't fit in2 my jeans anymore... SOBZ! all my low waist (loose) shorts become tighter & shorter, all my mini skirts become micro minis.... haiz.. time 2 get longer/ bigger shorts & skirts??

haiz... i gotta 认真点... no more fooling around... gotta b determined 2 only haf 1 bad paper + 3 gd papers! need sum luck in spoting questions... e lecturers shld really gif us more tips... u dun wanna c mi again next sem neither do i wanna c u again next sem so we shld help each other! u gif mi more tips, i study them & get e hell outta skool! win-win situation! but.. u guys r juz not cooperative! haiz..

had dinner wif a drunken kid @ bugis juz now... i feel like a rag doll! had quite a few laughs... haha... no more headlocks pls! 三十(29.999 to b more accurate)岁了，成熟点！！ gd luck 4 ur miting tml morning!

gotta wake my brain up

woke up awhile ago but my brain doesn't seem 2 b working rite... system overload? my brain crash?? haiz... gonna gif it a wake up call... tried cold shower but din woke... up next: coffee, coffee & more coffee! mayb too much of my brain cells died yday... e remaining cells can only substain "normal" activities (i.e. no more studying??)! i'm cooking up stories again... so there r brain cells left... they juz refuse 2 study... gg on a strike huh??

WAKE UP GREY MATTER!! GET 2 WORK!

1 down 3 more 2 go...

i think i juz flunk a paper... haiz... e questions were kinda eewwwwwww........ i mean... there were terms i nv heard of till juz now... it shows tat i dun study everything huh?? anyway... it's so different frm e past yr paper... i mean excluding e 1 tat's AGES ago.. even e course name was diff den... e questions came frm tat OLD OLD set of paper... can u believe it?

wen i wasn't studying last sat nite, i was chatting wif lynn.. i realise we haf tis problem.... ppl always assume we r party gals... wat's up? i'm sure we dun haf e words "SPG" stuck/ written on our forehead! we r no SPGs (sarong party gals). we do party OCCASIONALLY, tat's it... haiyo.... believe mi wen i say i lead a boring life... 1 tat's full of books & crapy theories...

oh anyway, sum1's complaining tat i din write abt doing anything wif him aft my examz.. 帅哥！就是你了啦！！we shall go 2 e ZOO (not zouk) aft my examz... haha.. aft e 9th may, i'm a free women (@ least till b4 i get my results)... & it'll b FUN, FUN, FUN!!!!!!!

I hate examz!

haha.. i'm a idiot! is there any1 who likes examz?? anyway... still trying hard 2 scrape my way thru... I will pass.. somehow 1 way or another, i've gotta.. think it's abt time my dad fire mi frm my current job--> being a free loader... haiz... wat 2 do wen i grad? i shld b more concern wif how 2 pass my examz rite now...

Yo ppl.. wait 4 mi b4 u guys start e party k! my crapy examz end on e 9th may! ask mi out den!!!

things 2 do aft tis shit...
~organise a BF 0201 class gathering (i hope i can get more den e 5-6 usual peeps)
~get lucy her belated present
~dinner wif lucy, hanging out wif e usual gang
~clubbing, any1?
~clean up my room
~get out of club panda
~pasir ris park
~go 2 e zoo! eve, interested?
~camping??
~KTV!!!!
~my sis is coming back.. kinda miss her... haha.. it's so quiet w/o her.. no1 2 argue wif...
~hmmm...... get a job??? eee.... aft i have enough fun.

aft e endless list... i mean it goes on & on & on... if i have enough time 2 think abt it.. back 2 reality.. gg back 2 study... aft i finish swearing..

IFO sucks! y give mi a formula sheet without all e formula?? bloody hell. i've got very limited brain cells 2 start wif, aft e paper there'll b none left! haiz.. i've no idea wat tis crap is abt....

done... study...

nite @ dragonfly

haha.. still fooling around... dragonfly's fun...a combo of jay's hits, 90s music(songs tat i haven heard in a long long long time) & current ktv hits... haha!there was some canto but e 香港人 dunno all those songs.. e 新加坡人 there seem 2 love those songs... cultural diff?? i dunno... dun understand canto anyway... here's some pics

e babes...


picked him up @ e lost & found... he's a gd drinker so he drinks on my behalf.. haha! evil j0yzz is up 2 no gd! JW's jealous cuz i din take a pic wif her...


out comes my double chin...


daffy duck


was it e drinks, e songs or e mood? things seem so diff... & i wonder y have i got all tis little cuts on my hands.. wat did i do?? hmmmmm...

drive, drive , drive & study, study, study!

i drive wen i dun nid 2 & dun drive wen i shld.... hmmmm.... i realli gotta drive out more often... i hate 2 pay cabbies 20 bucks juz 2 send mi hm wen i can do tat 4 free.. (ie. dad's paying 4 petrol & parking so it cost nothing) Bratty joyzz is back... No more late nites out??

i gotta learn frm jin... shld change my nick 2 i GOTTA STUDY, STUDY, STUDY cuz i flunk tat bloody test.. will spot questions 4 IME tml... i'll beta b gd @ it or i'm SO DEAD! 10 juz reminded mi juz now... jin copied my answers & she got a credit but i flunk! is her eyesight perfect 2 spot juz e correct ans or is she juz plain lucky?? either way, i flunk so no more complains... i din study so i can't expect much...

hmmm... i think tis time round i nid an guardian angel wif a gd eye 4 spotting e rite questions! and 1 who's gd @ international trade & intro 2 futures & options! So ANGELS where r u??? i kinda nid ur help... yoyo... it's mi rite here! yup... i've got loads of junk food 2 share!

At tis pt in time joyzz has gone crazy & u muz b crazy to continue reading till here...

naughty little gal...

haha.. tat's wat i've been... din study e whole day... went out 2 play... messed around e whole day... flunk my IME test... was gossiping with eve, daffy & JW... hmmm..... 10am @ sembawang Mrt tml... Boring books make mi slpy but i've got no choice... shall make up 4 e time lost today..

1 little step closer 2 a cool b'day bash... time 2 get a new bikini?? e party theme is giving mi another reason 2 go shopping 4 1... hehee... looking 4ward 2 eve's b'day... woohoo! i wish, hope & pray tat e place will b available... muackz.. luvya 2 bits.. glad tat u r happy! i reali shld mit eric 1 day... haha... E magic & gong tao combo is real cool! hope ya enjoy dinner wif him tonite! we'll bullshit more wen we mit again...

OK! now i'm a little pissed.... can't sign in MSN... i shall live without it today...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, LUCY!!!!!!!!!! MUACKZ.... truckloads of hugs & kisses... kinda bz wif examz @ e moment BUT will mit 4 dinner soon k.... luvya 2 bits... take care! say hi 2 ur mum, grandma & ur cat wif attitude! miss ya alot...

Random pix

juz some pix i took wif my fone recently... full of memories...

Wen back 2 NYP 2 study today... haha.. Miss tat place... miss those old times...

Swing, swing, swing... hee... Use 2 play here all e time... Lucy, dawn remember?? i use 2 drag e 2 of them wif mi...



Miss e signs...


how many birthday celebrations did we haf there?? haha... i remember we had carol & Iskanda's there...


back in those days wen i was in poly, it's always telling mi i'm late... haha... hate tis big red clock...


I remember throwing jean in2 tis pool on her b'day... got caught 4 it... haha... lucy, jean remember??


kinder surprise! wen was e last time u had it??


My best budds... luv them 2 bits...

Happy, sad, dotted...

heard a voice i wanted 2 hear... met a gf i wanted 2 mit... bought a bag i like... haf an exciting plan ahead.. haha... Eve's b'day present will b an unforgetable b'day bash??? hahahahahaha... I luv great parties! we r gg 2 make it work, gal! Yippy~ yippy~ YEAH!

dear gal.. it hurts mi 2 c u get treated like tat... u haf given enuff chances! it's time 2 put it 2 a stop( @ least i think so)! as a fren, as a sista, i haf a question 4 u: Will some1 who luv u hurt u like tat? ask urself tat & look 4 e answer in ur heart... GET IT RITE!!!! baby, i can't help u if u dun wanna do anyhing abt it... as a fren, as a sista, e decision is 4 u 2 make... watever it is, i will respect it & i'll support u... juz gif mi a call & tell mi abt it... u r always there wen i nid u... i wanna b here 4 u 2... a shoulder 2 cry on, a fren 2 lean on, a listening ear, all in 1... muackz... cheer up k!!

有时我只想冷静一点。。。 我知道我的脾气不好，一发不可收拾, 所以一直try 2保持冷静！但也许我太冷静了，你把“我的冷静”当成“我不紧张你”。。。 I dunno wat 2 do... 想给你自由，给得太多怕你觉得我不在意你，给得太少我怕你觉得不够。。。It's a (-_-") situation... It's not because i dun care! somethings r beyond my control & i noe it... so i try not 2 over react. simple as tat...

hyper joyzz is back...

hahaha.. i'm so so so full of energy since yesterday... yippy ya ya, yippy yippy ya!! yippy is a good name... hahaha...wen bowling wif e usual peeps last nite @ OCC. It's team yippy (aka jin, YC & mi) VS striker (aka PX & SY) haha... wat arrogance! Striker huh? we beat them! hahaha.. It's pure luck so i shudn't b so yaya... It was an exciting game.. haha... Nice music too.. retro den R&B.. felt like dancing! hehee... aft tat, it's supper @ e same old place den hm sweet hm... reached hm @ 4am, studied till 6...

woke up @ 12.30 2 collect my PC... It looks damn ah beng... beng 2 e max! dunno wat happened... haiz... did my chore of e week.... (ie. mop e floor...) was blasting stephanie's songs thru out... my neighbours muz b cursing.. haha... now, i'm outta energy... think i'll take a nap den wake up 2 study sm more... haben touch my notes yet..

Tml's program: go pay my respect 2 my grandparents in e morning & mit eve 4 dinner... shall study wif time in b/w... i hope i'll b able 2 study... got so much on... Lucy's b'day is coming... presie?? any ideas any1???

PS: lucy.... luvya 2 bits... missya like hell! dinner next week?? muackz!

j0yzz is gg 2 zzzzzz..... snorez~

My ideal job...

having my final examz soon... so every1's curious abt wat am i gonna do aft i grad... Well... my answer 2 tat is usually: "i'll think abt it wen i graduate!" tat answer seems 2 scare alot of ppl... yea yea... i'm a slacker & u guys noe it... so y kick up a fuss??

e funniest thing is tat most of tis ppl think tat i shld get married 2 a rich man & b a tai tai... Well... I wud like tat 2 but i seriously think no rich man wud wanna marry mi... haha... I dunno y most ppl can't imagine me working... eee... i'm juz a normal gal... mayb i slack more den others?? e way i dress?? haha.. i think it's cuz ppl can't imagine me in a 9-5 job wearing typical OL clothes... Well... i'll let u ppl noe wen i get my 1st "real job" haha... be it a tai tai(near zero chance) or a normal OL.. I can adjust 2 my environment.... so let's wait & c...

PS: YO... any rich man wanna marry mi??? i can do alittle cleaning & stuff like tat but i'm applying 2 b a tai tai so i dun think skills like tat r needed... I can act like a bimbo... hmmm... mayb i am 1 (mayb not tat gorgeous but will do i guess)...
let's c... i think i haf all e "skills" needed 2 b a tai tai... eee...

~ordering e maid around --- check
~ability 2 act dumb wen needed --- check
~go 4 manicure/ pedicure/ facial/ spa etc --- sure, if u r footing e bill, y not??
~have "intelligent" conversations (abt politics & nonsense like tat) --- sure, with a little research
~look like a million bucks -- sure, if u pay a million bucks, i will look like a million bucks

guess tat's abt it... haha.. any takers??

yawn....

gd morning.. haha... i juz woke up... can believe it rite it's nearly 5pm & i juz woke up...

woke up @ 6am today... wen has was e last time i did tat? last sem's examz?? forgotten... gosh... 6am! e sun's not even out yet but i cudn't go back 2 slp so... saw bryan wong @ clake quay(was on my way hm).. 10am in e mrning.. too tired forgot 2 take a pic wif him...

anyway... wen i reached hm, there was tis icy stare(=MUM) waiting 4 mi... haiz... wat did i do wrong again?? i told u tat i'm not coming hm & u make a fuss. & wen i dun tell u tat i'm not coming hm u make a even bigger fuss! so which is e lesser of e 2 evil?? sometimes i really dunno which 2 choose... haiz... i gif up! e battle b/w us has been happening 4 e past 21yrs, haven't we learnt sth?? i think i did learn sth ---> i juz gotta live wif it... she's playing mahjong now.. beta win sum $$ so she wun b so pissed!

hee... new fone...

hahaha... got a new fone! yippy... think i will grow 2 love it.... cheers! thanks dad!