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aft a long chat on e fone yday, i feel so frustrated... i feel 4 u... it hurts so much juz 2 hear it frm u, i can't imagine wat u haf been thru... I'm sad, angry, seriously PISSED (@ u 4 giving her e chance 2 break ur heart again, @ her 4 thinking tat she'll get away wif it!)!!!!!

ARGH!! how did sumthing so rite become so wrong?? how can 2 ppl say such similar words?? wen i heard abt it , it all sounds so familiar! baby, help urself... dun ask how r u gg 2 do w/o her, ask wat can u do w/o her! it takes courage 2 step away frm it all... it takes courage 2 leave ur comfort zone, aft e 1st step, everything will fall in2 place... it's amazing wat 1 can do wen u wan 2... i dunno how i did it either but having u definately helped!

baby, i'm so so sorry i can't spend more time wif u! aft my examz k! we'll look 4 a slacker job, go sun tanning, clubbing etc etc... i might not b able 2 hang out wif ya now but i'm still here... gif mi a call... feel like crying & i'll cry wif u & gif ya a BIG hug! wen u wanna haf fun i'll appear & add more fun 2 ur day! baby, u r stronger den u think, u haf yet 2 discover tat.. i'm still looking forward 2 e day wen u'll take tat 1st step & put it all in e past! remember, Time heals all wounds! no matter how much it hurts, i'll b there 2 help! jia you k!

YC: get well soon!! hope ur nose wun get bloodier den it already is! but if it does get worse, i think i noe wat u did.. haha.. muackz.. take care!

Eve: i stood in tat bloody Q for 1/2hr in 3" heels.. wrong attire @ e wrong time.. things i do 4 a sista! u owe mi 1... let mi c.. i wanna try e cheese cake @ e cheese cake cafe (east coast)! aft my stupid examz, ur treat (i dun care)!!!

lynn: chat chat chat, rot rot rot, eat eat eat! miss doing tis stuff wif ya... but think i gotta skip e eat eat eat part... i've a big butt.. sobz (-_-)

jin, 10, dawn: 加油吧！ 姐妹们，we can do it!!!!!

lucy: hmmm.... luck 4 ur paper! pls do start picking up my calls! looking forward 2 mit sign!! muackz.. hugz & kisses... dinner aft my examz! leave my a spot on ur ever bz schedule! owe u a b'day pressie!

fellow BF 0201s: eeee..... wud like a class gathering sumtime in may/june... will cook up a plan.. get back 2 u guys soon.. pls do come k! wanna c how u guys r doing now.. miss e times we had! muackz