Devastated

DEVASTATED- tat's e word 2 describe mi aft e investments paper... j0yzz realised 1 thing... i've NEVER liked & i will NEVER like studying & i dunno wat on hell made mi take up tis course! i'm a idiot! a super dumb ass!!!! i've been spending e past 18yrs of my life doing examz & shit! i mean since 4yo.. if u discount e 1st 3 yrs of "play skool", it's examz every yr since 7... WTF!!!! 4 e past 15 yrs of my life i'm been taking god knows how many examz & tis is e WORSE 1 ever... nothing can b worse den tis.. i'm gg 2 stay a student till e end of tis yr ( @ least till e end of tis yr... dunno how many paper i'll fail..)..

Mr MOK- WTF... if u dun wanna help mi pass, @ least dun help 2 fail mi! out of e 6 questions u gave only 1/2 a question came out... it's 10 marks a question ( i get 2 choose 4 outta 6) & only a mere 5 marks part came out.... even if i memorised all tat shit nothing came out! i'm total defeated & utterly devastated.. tis tiny joke of urs is so goddamn cruel 2 us... i still have 1 last paper... i'm totally not in e mood 2 study yet i haf 2... Totally haf no more courage 2 trust ur IME tips...

i need 2 cheer up... i dunno how 2... i'm feeling worse den i did 1 yr ago! how can tat b?? i hit e all time low of my life today 1 yr ago.. now... history is repeating itself.. 7th of may is not a gd day 4 j0yzz since 2006.. doomsday...

i still need my doctor boyfriend! my finger is "rotting"... eeewwwwwwww......... peeling & blistering...... DISGUSTING!!!!! wif all e wierd illnesses i'm getting, e doctor bf has 2 haf e director of e hospital as his dad.. else my specialist bills wud literally gif him a heart attack!

I need a job.. gotta pay more skool fees.. $$$$$$ fall frm e sky pls!!! @ e rate i'm gg i'll drive my dad up e wall b4 i grad.. i c e sacrifices he made 4 mi... yet i juz disappointed him again.. daddy, i'm sorry.. i'll try harder 4 e next paper..

i've gone crazy juz becuz i listened 2 a crazy fool's tips.... 此时此刻的我，深深的体会到哭笑不得的意思。。。该哭因为 i'm gonna flunk tis, 还是该笑因为 i'm din memorise ALL e 6 questions? i memorised 4 of them... 不管我是哭，是笑，life has 2 go on... once i had a choice.. i made e choice & i'll haf 2 face e consequences... like it or not, tat's life.. i think i've been pretty lucky my whole life so far & i think i've used up all my luck 4 gd.. haha... 4 e next god knows how many yrs i'll b fcuk!

optimistic- once it's a word 2 describe j0yzz, today, tml, & more days 2 come j0yzz will hardly b able 2 smile...

不准哭！！！！ it nv does help.... gonna bath, get sum slp, wake up & study 4 my next paper...

1 devastating paper, 1 bad paper & 1 so-so paper

I need e god of econs... lilo, can i switch brain wif ya juz 4 2hrs?? i've juz proven tat i really am crazy...