intriguing

fascinated n disconnected r e words i'll use today..

hmm... can't put hw i feel in words... things happen 4 a reason.. if i can't comprehend nw, i will b able 2 in e future..

i hate 2 say this.. u r rt.. 4 mi, my family, it's beta 2 stay in sg.. thank you 4 telling mi tt wen i refuse 2 accept this fact. wen things happen, tt is e truth. thank you 4 everything.

things will work out juz fine

the intense joy of possession - stem of greed. it's not be cause i want it, not because i nid it, it's the joy of possessing it that gives me the kick.

long weekend~~

finally looking forward to alot mre zzz during e long weekend.. looking like a panda nw.. @ least i have sum1 2 off load sum of my wrk 2.. my manager keeps asking mi 2 gif her mre stuffs 2 do.. i'm worried tt she'll nt turn up 4 wrk if i start doing tt..haiz... she takes 1/2 a day to do my filing everyday.. hmm.. i wonder hw did i manage 2 finish all e filing n follow up with all e cases i have on hand.. still a mystery..

was reading e paper a couple days back... on e headlines:

Crushed leg,crushed future
but do u care?

wen i read tt, my 1st tot is how can i care? i'm nt cold blooded bt i c cases of death/crushed limps on a daily basis.. broken family with parents fighting over compensation with the wife (who's pregnant n has another young kid). tell mi hw do i care? losing my humanity in my line of work.. all the decreased, ill/hurted crew r juz a name in my books.. nth mre den tt cuz if they r anything mre, i'll go crazy. compensation 4 a life ranges frm US$15-150K. a life is only worth tt much.. had a case where e guy lost his foot, e compensation was only US$6k... tell mi hw do u care? tis is juz life...

lucy! i still din manage 2 c u!! Argh!! din noe u wen 2 states... haiz.. heard tt things r nt looking so gd.. gal, u muz b strong k! in life there r alot of things beyond our control. 1 of these things is love.. u n mi, we wan 2 luv, can gif alot bt sumtimes becuz e ways words r put, it juz doesn't sound rt. if it's possible, try 2 wrk it out, i can tell u luv him alot.. if nt, u juz haf 2 learn 2 brave thru tis. dun ask others hw they did it. it seems so immpossible @ times, hw can 1 b so strong. i can tell u tt all tis has 2 b learnt & forced. i dun wanna b alone, unluv. bt i noe it's beta 4 us 2 grow apart den 2 grow 2 hate.. things juz fall apart n becum e way they r n we juz grow 2 b able 2 survive.

baby, no matter wat u still haf us.. throw mi a call wen u r back. luv u! tk care my dear..

i miss blogging..

haben blogged in donkey yrs.. hmmm.. miss e days wen i cud blog daily.. haha... dunno wat u've gt till u lose it.. din noe hw 2 treasure e time i use 2 haf..

anyway.. updates..
still sick.. haiz.. my stomache is unable 2 retain food.. can't eat 2 much, no dairy, no coffee/tea/oily food.. aft a jab on wed.. it's still nt much beta.. e amazing thing is i think i'm gaining weight.. haha! will c hw it goes.. dear tummy, will appreciate if u can get beta soon. i wan sum chocolate/coffee!!

missed Mr.Ee secret celebration cuz of my gastric problem.. argh! i miss hanging out w u guys!! esp u, LUCY!!! haha.. we nid 2 mit up soon... keke... anyway, we'll beta take ALOT of pics as usual n haf alot of FUN!! till den i'll b missing u..

haiz.. miss msning w lynn.. haha.. haben had time 2 do tt either..
gotta wrk faster, z!! will haf a couple of hrs of peace to clear all e stuff b4 it floods my mailbox again..(manager is currently away 4 miting)

still waiting 4 my dream 2 come true:

I WANNA B A TAI TAI!!!!!!

@ e rate things r gg, i dun think it'll ever haben.. happily ever aft- a phrase u shld nv believe in aft a age of 5. looking forward, @ times my mind juz wanders back 2 e happier moments.. i noe it's stupid.. cuz there is no happily ever aft n i'm nt brave enuff 2 handle e nt-so-easy times..

life - contradiction & alot of confusion... i did try.. really did.. it's nt enuff yet no1 is 2 blame.