Close substitutes...

I've realised that his love for me is only as much as he claims because he says e same thing to every other girl he meets.. No doubt to e one who's currently in his arms...

To each and everyone of us he says that "the other girl" is a substitute... the truth being how many other girls are there? He's looking for a substitute all along.. i'm just one of them.. though i dunno who did i substitute but i know the only one he really loves is himself... He doesn't need friends or girlfriends... He survives by loving himself and making himself happy all e time.. doesn't matter who's heart he broke it doesn't matter what he has said cause he says it to everyone else..

maybe i'm jealous but i'm glad that this will all end tomorrow.. So much for that "i still love you".. keep those words for yourself... Since i'm so easily substitutable, the demand will fall when the price rise.. I don't wanna be an inferior good anymore.. in your eyes i'm nothing more than that.. So i shall not care about how you look at me anymore.. Cause all e hurt and heartache will go away when i saw how easily substitutable i am in your eyes...

i wanna take a break...

Didn't write for sometime... My PC broke down.. sob! Maybe I'm just running away, from him and everything.. I feel so broken, I don't know what I want, how i feel... it' been so difficult, so painful... It hurts real bad right now... Everywhere i go, it reminds me of e happier times we had together. i really wanna find a hole and hide myself inside... Away from this world that brings me plenty of pain...

He doesn't understand what i've been trying to say... Now, i give up... there's no point hurting me anymore... It hurts so much that i don't think i can feel anymore pain! I have no more trust in you... Ask me why i don't wanna hear from you! e answer being i want you to stay as an angel in my heart! I've uncovered so many lies that i don't wanna hear another word from you.. I'm just so afraid that e next sentence from you is also a lie. Onelie just leads to another... I've given up on you been truthful to me... I so tired.. So wore out and so sad... my tears have dried up, my heart is already so broken...

All this shall end this way because there's not much of a chance of things changing, maybe it's because i don't believe that it will change at all.. That will be a joke to me.. anyway.. tml will be better!! ZOUK is e place to be... see ya all there!! muackz... feel so much better... haha

Once i was so in love with him... Despite the numerous difference between us, i loved him so... I don't mind his past, i chose to believe and love in him. Maybe i did not know how to treasure him, maybe we just had too much differences but it doesn't matter anymore 'cause I'm no longer wiling to try anymore.

Love is blind... I don't blame him, 'cause there's no one to blame! i played a part in this and i know it. I admit, i'm not the perfect girlfriend, i did throw tantrums, i was mean at times.. I wanna become a better person but i don't think i am one yet.. So i don't think there'll be a difference even if we start all over again...

I've already ran out of ways to tell you that we will not work out.. Why are you still so persistant? Are you just trying to make it up to me? I don't even know if you really love me or are you just trying to make it up and prove everyone wrong... I'm sure of one thing though, I think we are not suitable for each other... The more you try to explain, the more i feel so.. So give me the time and space i deserve... Things have changed... I'm no longer blindly in love with you...