Why do you still care?

I'm so goddamn confused... Why remind me of how much you care? You have a new girlfriend now... You guys are happily in love.. SO SPEND YOUR TIME AND EFFORT ON HER!!! I'm trying very hard not to break down... I'm trying really hard not to make another mistake... why are you tempting me? Don't pity me, i don't need your sympathy! I made a promise and i wanna keep it... You will not understand because you don't keep them...

You do not understand how much agony I'm in... You don't know how hurt i am, simply because you are not me... I really did love you alot.. I don't know why but i did.. This wound needs long term care... I know it... The care will not be from you cause you gave up your right a long time ago.. So stop it! You cannot help me just like i cannot help you... You don't believe me cause i don't believe you either... Whatever i say is just bullshit just as your words are to me... As much as i wanna help you, i cannot.. Simply because I need you to trust me for me to help... But the trust between us is long gone... And it'll take a bloody long time for it to build up... Time, a promise and the law is against us! Though there's a song named "against all odds" i'm simply too hurt to try... I'm still doing all i can to help you but I don't want your thank you till you understand and admit what your loved ones are doing for you... Instead of spending time on me, spend it on your mum... I cannot think of anyone who deserves your time more than her! I can tell that she devastated ever since she knew what is going to happen to you... I know you will not listen to me.. I've said my share, the rest is up to you...

My heartaches for you but you'll not understand why till when someone you REALLY love break your heart. The day you understand all this crap i'm going through is the day when we can talk without you cursing me at the end of the coversation... That will be the day that i finally think all this pain is worth it! I believe the day will come, and i pray that it will not be too late.

Actually i feel that deep in your heart you know that everything we are doing right now is for YOU! It's all for your own good and you just don't wanna admit it.. It seems that you have a problem admitting that people are indeed doing things for you.. You have a problem admitting your weaknesses! But who doesn't have weaknesses? No man is perfect!! You don't get it do you?