after 2 consecutive slpless nite my body's breaking down... throat's nt gd n skin sucks. haiz... muz slp slp slp mre!!!
received mum's call asking wen i'm gg hm on bth sat n sun. strange cuz tat hasn't happen in i dunno hw many donkey yrs. On sat it felt so sweet. nice 2 hear sum1 asking wen u'll b hm.
BUT, on sun she call 2 scream her head off! i can't even remb wen was e last time i made her so mad.. haiz.. i tried 2 kip my cool, i really tried. i knew i was gg 2 get it so.. haiz.. she scream so much i felt like crying. n in e end i did. however tis is gg 2 e LAST time i'm gg 2 cry 4 tat reason. really i'm nt gg 2 cry anymre.
humans r creatures of habit. i'm doing wat i'm used 2 doing. dun worry, tis is e last time. mind over heart. it's time 2 change all e stupid habits. gg 2 practice e see no evil, hear no evil n speak no evil strategy!
i did everything i wanted 2. finished wat i started. nw, it's time 2 end tat story. bye bye lah...
幸福，快乐- tat's hw i'll live my life. i'll keep on smiling. i'm ok. i will b, i muz b.
Monday, March 31, 2008
Saturday, March 29, 2008
hohoho...
i forgot... i wen 2 SIM yday n wen 4 jin's IME lecture. I SAW XIAO YUE!!!!!!! haha... finally i mit e mysterious xiao yue. actually i dun think he's tat cute lah.. (ok, i muz admit recently i lost e ability 2 spot cute guys. so dun trust mi 2 much on tis 1.) he is kinda quiet, shy-shy, cool-cool guy. his writing looks neat, super hardworking 1 lor. unlike jin, 2pm lecture & she reaches @ 2.20.
haiz... dawn is worse! nv turn up 4 lecture @ all!! wei. y din u go 2 skool yday? i haben seen u 4 a long time le. gosh! i miss skool! but it's time 2 move on.. i still haf tml to think of. no mre slacking j0yzz...
haiz... dawn is worse! nv turn up 4 lecture @ all!! wei. y din u go 2 skool yday? i haben seen u 4 a long time le. gosh! i miss skool! but it's time 2 move on.. i still haf tml to think of. no mre slacking j0yzz...
another sleepless nite...
it sucks wen ur body says i'm freaking tired but ur mind juz wun rest! i nid a on/off button attached 2 my brain. since my heart & my mind cannot live together in harmony, i'll let 1 of them rule, e other shall hibernate. my rational mind shall rule n my heart shld die...
perhaps it has already died a long time ago. wen i smile my facial muscles r doing its job. but my heart is not smiling, it's nt happpy. haf no idea how 2 make it happy so... i haf a feeling e crazy joyzz might nv cum back..
today's e last day of e battle between my heart n mind. tml onwards e mind shall rule. 人在江湖 生不由己。开心也是一天，不开心也是一天。重要的不是 开不开心，是今天我做了些什 么。
"unaffected joyzz" - in e making. unaffected by e things happening around mi. with or without i muz survive. 加油吧！ 不会就要去学。 我在学着怎 样自私点，容忍点，耐心点，安静点。很重要的：我要学怎样安安静静的观察。can't even take care of myself yet i care so much abt e feelings of e ppl around mi. stupid! time 4 sum mi, myself n i!
perhaps it has already died a long time ago. wen i smile my facial muscles r doing its job. but my heart is not smiling, it's nt happpy. haf no idea how 2 make it happy so... i haf a feeling e crazy joyzz might nv cum back..
today's e last day of e battle between my heart n mind. tml onwards e mind shall rule. 人在江湖 生不由己。开心也是一天，不开心也是一天。重要的不是 开不开心，是今天我做了些什 么。
"unaffected joyzz" - in e making. unaffected by e things happening around mi. with or without i muz survive. 加油吧！ 不会就要去学。 我在学着怎 样自私点，容忍点，耐心点，安静点。很重要的：我要学怎样安安静静的观察。can't even take care of myself yet i care so much abt e feelings of e ppl around mi. stupid! time 4 sum mi, myself n i!
Thursday, March 27, 2008
高空弹跳
高空弹跳- wat ever tat goes up muz cum down. law of gravity. tat's how i'm feeling now. moody, moody, moody! bungee jumping..
lynn: leaving tml le. 有一点点不舍得 ~ Gosh! time flies. u haf been back 4 more den a mth le. muz take care of urself. 我会很 x3，非常x3，想你的！(~_~) muz call/MSN mi often. 爱你喔! muackzx3! hee~ muz remb ur beri impt mission. n pls tell auntie, uncle, bobo, zaza i miss them!
~你会从此以后 过着幸福快乐的日子~
Mr lau: take gd care of my twin! feed her more food! every1's saying she looks skinnier now. dun bully her ar! if i hear her complains i'll pay u a visit! looking 4ward 2 baby lau's arrival! (^-^)
疯疯颠颠的joyzz几时才会回来？我很想念以前的我 。u win sum, u lose sum. lost e crazy i-dun-gif-a-damn joyzz. did i win a more solemn joyzz? 没有失去，不懂得 拥有。i was told tis is an expensive lesson. 这个游戏的代价很大，原来我玩不起。 时间一天天的过，我好像越变越笨。mayb i was nv smart 2 start wif!
u r rite. it's mi fighting against myself. watever happens. i'll win! it's a matter of time. thanks 4 everything! luvya! muackz~ 明天会有彩虹！
lynn: leaving tml le. 有一点点不舍得 ~ Gosh! time flies. u haf been back 4 more den a mth le. muz take care of urself. 我会很 x3，非常x3，想你的！(~_~) muz call/MSN mi often. 爱你喔! muackzx3! hee~ muz remb ur beri impt mission. n pls tell auntie, uncle, bobo, zaza i miss them!
~你会从此以后 过着幸福快乐的日子~
Mr lau: take gd care of my twin! feed her more food! every1's saying she looks skinnier now. dun bully her ar! if i hear her complains i'll pay u a visit! looking 4ward 2 baby lau's arrival! (^-^)
疯疯颠颠的joyzz几时才会回来？我很想念以前的我 。u win sum, u lose sum. lost e crazy i-dun-gif-a-damn joyzz. did i win a more solemn joyzz? 没有失去，不懂得 拥有。i was told tis is an expensive lesson. 这个游戏的代价很大，原来我玩不起。 时间一天天的过，我好像越变越笨。mayb i was nv smart 2 start wif!
u r rite. it's mi fighting against myself. watever happens. i'll win! it's a matter of time. thanks 4 everything! luvya! muackz~ 明天会有彩虹！
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
who am i?
I am...
a set of dna?
a sg gal?
a fresh grad?
a easy gg person?
a bimbo?
a ugly duckling?
a selfish person?
a forgiving person?
a generous person?
a attention seeker?
a loving person?
a cruel person?
a caring person?
a cunning person?
a simple person?
a optimistic person?
a carefree spirit?
a dumbass?
an intelligent being?
a sad soul?
a dreamer?
a naive person?
a complex mind?
a hollow shell?
a vengeful person?
a lover?
a fighter?
a daughter?
a sister?
a friend?
a stranger?
a tai tai wannabe?
a job seeker?
who am i? it seems as if everyday i wake up wif a different combination. sometimes i dun even noe who i am. i wonder who will i be tomorrow...
tell mi, which combo do u know me as?
a set of dna?
a sg gal?
a fresh grad?
a easy gg person?
a bimbo?
a ugly duckling?
a selfish person?
a forgiving person?
a generous person?
a attention seeker?
a loving person?
a cruel person?
a caring person?
a cunning person?
a simple person?
a optimistic person?
a carefree spirit?
a dumbass?
an intelligent being?
a sad soul?
a dreamer?
a naive person?
a complex mind?
a hollow shell?
a vengeful person?
a lover?
a fighter?
a daughter?
a sister?
a friend?
a stranger?
a tai tai wannabe?
a job seeker?
who am i? it seems as if everyday i wake up wif a different combination. sometimes i dun even noe who i am. i wonder who will i be tomorrow...
tell mi, which combo do u know me as?
Saturday, March 08, 2008
gals' Nite out!
yoyo ladies! i wanna plan a gal's nite out party on e 22nd march(sat)@ st james. kinda like a party 2 catch up wif lynn n haf fun, bet u guys haben seen her in awhile..
wat's e point of having a gals nite out if u can't get any attention?? YEP! i'm an attention seeker! keke.. i luv dress up parties..
checklist:
-wear killer heels
-wear short dresses/skirts
-smoky eyes
-put on sum false lashes/bling blings
i wanna do a encore of e st james party "wif" sharene.
eve: can i count u in?
jin: wei! u on??
Ice: u back by den?
daffy: wanna join in e fun?
Mr lau: dun worry i'll take care of my twin. if any1 wans her no, i'll gif mine. if she drinks too much, i'll send her hm. if u r still worried, u can fly 2 sg 2 join e party but remb 2 put on a dress.. dun stand 2 close 2 us hor! otherwise we'll get e wrong kinda attention!
wat's e point of having a gals nite out if u can't get any attention?? YEP! i'm an attention seeker! keke.. i luv dress up parties..
checklist:
-wear killer heels
-wear short dresses/skirts
-smoky eyes
-put on sum false lashes/bling blings
i wanna do a encore of e st james party "wif" sharene.
eve: can i count u in?
jin: wei! u on??
Ice: u back by den?
daffy: wanna join in e fun?
Mr lau: dun worry i'll take care of my twin. if any1 wans her no, i'll gif mine. if she drinks too much, i'll send her hm. if u r still worried, u can fly 2 sg 2 join e party but remb 2 put on a dress.. dun stand 2 close 2 us hor! otherwise we'll get e wrong kinda attention!
Friday, March 07, 2008
i'm nt trying 2 b rude
received a text late last nite..
"i noe u won't reply, jux wan let u noe u r being tot of."
true enuff, i din reply! eeee.. seriously wat can my reply b?
option A(e typical s'porean): orh. thanks huh.
option B: thanks 4 thinking of me. ur msg made me think of u 2.
option C: gee.. thanks 4 letting mi noe.
i dun mean 2 b rude but i can only think of answers like tat. ok. no mre fooling around.
i really wanna thank u 4 letting mi noe. all along, tat's all i wanted. if u ever do read tis, i'm doing great. perhaps too much has happened btn us, i can't chat wit u nicely as much as i wud like 2 try... has been nice knowing u. i realli hope u r doing great 2. remb mi as who i was. somethings, some ppl r beta left tat way.
memories r e most beautiful present u can haf. wen e ppl u love haf 2 leave u 4 some reason, they wud wan u 2 remb them. keep e happy memories in ur heart. they wud noe tat they r being tot of.
"i noe u won't reply, jux wan let u noe u r being tot of."
true enuff, i din reply! eeee.. seriously wat can my reply b?
option A(e typical s'porean): orh. thanks huh.
option B: thanks 4 thinking of me. ur msg made me think of u 2.
option C: gee.. thanks 4 letting mi noe.
i dun mean 2 b rude but i can only think of answers like tat. ok. no mre fooling around.
i really wanna thank u 4 letting mi noe. all along, tat's all i wanted. if u ever do read tis, i'm doing great. perhaps too much has happened btn us, i can't chat wit u nicely as much as i wud like 2 try... has been nice knowing u. i realli hope u r doing great 2. remb mi as who i was. somethings, some ppl r beta left tat way.
memories r e most beautiful present u can haf. wen e ppl u love haf 2 leave u 4 some reason, they wud wan u 2 remb them. keep e happy memories in ur heart. they wud noe tat they r being tot of.
Thursday, March 06, 2008
(-_-") 被打败了！
haha.. wen 4 a interview today... can't even remb wat position it was 4... haha.. sounds realli interesting lah.. wen asked wat is my career aspiration i wanted 2 say i juz wan a job 2 feed myself 4 now. career aspiration(ie long term goals)? 5yrs down e road i hope 2 b a full time tai tai! haha!
hmmm.. hopefully mre interviews wud cum... nid a job 2 glue myself in sg.. no mre fun & games, no mre nt knowing wat's gg 2 happen tml. no mre drifting frm 1 place 2 another. i can't let my feelings rule cuz in e end i'll juz end up feeling mre hurt. 我不喜欢不安的感觉。我和你不一样。我不可以今天牵着你的手，明天叫你去爱别人。对不起，我就是做不到。
chatting wif my cousin nw.. a 12yo who has 十万个为什么。。keep asking mi questions.. kinda driving mi ARGH! (-_-")
nn, wen u ask mi 2 add her u din tell mi she will ask 十万个为什么. haiz... she's asking hw r u doing.. i'm like dah? u juz wen hm a couple of days ago. hw much diff wud u b? aiyo.. she doesn't noe tat there's sth call offline msg. she oso say she'll 舍不得你。 u beta keep in contact wit her. else she might juz drive mi crazy. ARGH! patience zz..
hmmm.. hopefully mre interviews wud cum... nid a job 2 glue myself in sg.. no mre fun & games, no mre nt knowing wat's gg 2 happen tml. no mre drifting frm 1 place 2 another. i can't let my feelings rule cuz in e end i'll juz end up feeling mre hurt. 我不喜欢不安的感觉。我和你不一样。我不可以今天牵着你的手，明天叫你去爱别人。对不起，我就是做不到。
chatting wif my cousin nw.. a 12yo who has 十万个为什么。。keep asking mi questions.. kinda driving mi ARGH! (-_-")
nn, wen u ask mi 2 add her u din tell mi she will ask 十万个为什么. haiz... she's asking hw r u doing.. i'm like dah? u juz wen hm a couple of days ago. hw much diff wud u b? aiyo.. she doesn't noe tat there's sth call offline msg. she oso say she'll 舍不得你。 u beta keep in contact wit her. else she might juz drive mi crazy. ARGH! patience zz..
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
靜靜的埋怨。。
我只是想靜靜的走開。什麼都不要了。你曾說過﹐沒有希望就不會有失望。(我當時的答案是﹕人生不就是為了希望而活的嗎﹖)今天的我很了解你那時為何會說這樣的話。可不可以不要讓我有希望﹖這是你可以為我做的最後一件事。我已經傷痕纍纍﹐不要這樣殘忍。對你仁慈是對我自己殘忍。我很了解但卻不忍心。也許這就是我傷痕的原因吧﹗
我知道不可以把我不喜歡做的事情推給你。放心吧﹗我會好好過。。。我會學着對你仁慈也對我自己好﹗
do u believe tat raindrops r tears of angels in heaven? if they r really tears, y r they crying? isn't heaven a nice place 2 b in? r they juz sad 2 c e way we r leading our lives? wondering... 天天看到灰色的天﹐我的心情也很灰。天使在掉眼淚嗎﹖你們是在陪我嗎﹖還是是我想太多﹖
was reading eve's blog.. haha..
"March horoscope for Sagittarius:
A new chapter is dawning that may involve RELOCATION, but events have a life of their own, so keep flexible. If work is oppressive. don't just complain- bite the bullet & get on with it, or resolve to search for your dream job."
juz wanna say tat my dream job is 2 b a tai tai.. i've been LOOKING LOOKING & LOOKING REALLY hard but no vacancies (e sg guys really dun like tall & skinny 1s who loves wear 3inch heels.. i muz really look in2 overseas market)... yo! any1 wanna marry mi?? haha.. where's my doctor bf who's e son a hospital director?? perhaps 2 fulfil my dream, i shld go b a nurse! ok.. no more nonsense.. DONGZ will jiayou look 4 a normal job n nt dream 2 b a tai tai anymre!
dawn:4got 2 pass u ur pressie.. muz mit u 4 k soon! btw, hw was e test?
daffy: congrads 4 e new job! jia you k! things will work out juz fine. hugs* call mi if u wanna chat! ur pressie is oso still @ my place..
Ice: wen r u coming back? let mi noe k. miss ya loads..
我知道不可以把我不喜歡做的事情推給你。放心吧﹗我會好好過。。。我會學着對你仁慈也對我自己好﹗
do u believe tat raindrops r tears of angels in heaven? if they r really tears, y r they crying? isn't heaven a nice place 2 b in? r they juz sad 2 c e way we r leading our lives? wondering... 天天看到灰色的天﹐我的心情也很灰。天使在掉眼淚嗎﹖你們是在陪我嗎﹖還是是我想太多﹖
was reading eve's blog.. haha..
"March horoscope for Sagittarius:
A new chapter is dawning that may involve RELOCATION, but events have a life of their own, so keep flexible. If work is oppressive. don't just complain- bite the bullet & get on with it, or resolve to search for your dream job."
juz wanna say tat my dream job is 2 b a tai tai.. i've been LOOKING LOOKING & LOOKING REALLY hard but no vacancies (e sg guys really dun like tall & skinny 1s who loves wear 3inch heels.. i muz really look in2 overseas market)... yo! any1 wanna marry mi?? haha.. where's my doctor bf who's e son a hospital director?? perhaps 2 fulfil my dream, i shld go b a nurse! ok.. no more nonsense.. DONGZ will jiayou look 4 a normal job n nt dream 2 b a tai tai anymre!
dawn:4got 2 pass u ur pressie.. muz mit u 4 k soon! btw, hw was e test?
daffy: congrads 4 e new job! jia you k! things will work out juz fine. hugs* call mi if u wanna chat! ur pressie is oso still @ my place..
Ice: wen r u coming back? let mi noe k. miss ya loads..
Saturday, March 01, 2008
another case of mistaken identity
on my way hm frm grandma's yday. her neighbours tot i was lynn wif a new haircut. they went: 喔！你几时剪。。。(wen they realise i wasn't her...) 她是谁？(they were pretty loud)
i wonder how many times will i haf 2 explain tat we r cousins in tis lifetime. i think it'll happen less often aft she goes back 2 aussie. haha.. but it's nice having a twin like tat always noe wat i'm thinking. noe wen i'm upset. i dun even haf 2 say anything. juz love her. thanks 4 being there my dear. wenever i'm upset u r there. muacks! 努力点！我的幸福就靠你了！
“人与人之间的感情不像在开车，说走就走说停就停。” 我只是还停不了。给一点时间，我就会做的到！ 加油吧！ 我和你之间有很多误会，也许最美丽的就是认识了你。
lucy: haf fun in KL. i'm ok. luvya! *hugs*
YC,PX & ee: gd luck 4 ur examz!
Jin & shan: 加油 4 e investment project! last sem le! we'll take pics tog tis aug!
i wonder how many times will i haf 2 explain tat we r cousins in tis lifetime. i think it'll happen less often aft she goes back 2 aussie. haha.. but it's nice having a twin like tat always noe wat i'm thinking. noe wen i'm upset. i dun even haf 2 say anything. juz love her. thanks 4 being there my dear. wenever i'm upset u r there. muacks! 努力点！我的幸福就靠你了！
“人与人之间的感情不像在开车，说走就走说停就停。” 我只是还停不了。给一点时间，我就会做的到！ 加油吧！ 我和你之间有很多误会，也许最美丽的就是认识了你。
lucy: haf fun in KL. i'm ok. luvya! *hugs*
YC,PX & ee: gd luck 4 ur examz!
Jin & shan: 加油 4 e investment project! last sem le! we'll take pics tog tis aug!
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