静静地

我会静静地 长大。 会找到我想要的。 会找到我自己。 会很幸福，快 乐，开心！

(o_o) n (-_-)

spent e nite @ my grandma's.. din slp much again.. haiz.. din work even though 睡神 was lying beside mi.. woke up 2 a day of routine life @ grandma's.. alot of food, arguement n laughter. haiz.. my grandpa is still smoking n asking 4 fried carrot cake... i guess somethings wun change (-_-'). sumtimes it juz drives mi crazy 2 c how e 2 of them live under 1 roof. i really wonder how did they survive living tog 4 so long.

女人就这样败给一个情字。U'll b alrt. we'll b alrt!! (^-^)

wanna go bj, shld nt stay 4 longer term. wat i shld do v.s wat i wanna do. who wud win? It's all up 2 mi.

hi & bye

gg 2 e airport twice a day less den 12hrs apart. e 1st trip there totally killed mi. check in system crashed @ T1. (-__-") nv haf i ever seen such a long Q @ e sg airport. haiz... been sending ppl off pretty frequently. they juz had 2 make tis 1 memorable. i guess it's a longer gdbye.

hope e 2nd trip there will b loads beta. so glad lynn's taking SQ(T2 or 3). gg 2 say hi 2 her later.. miss her like crazy. days w/o my twin is pretty unbearable. can't wait 2 c her. wanna hear all abt e stuff she's done there. i haf a feeling i'll b sending her off again pretty soon. keke.

things come wen u least expect them. sometimes u juz noe hw somethings r gg 2 turn out. u still wanna gif it a shot. whether u suceed or nt @ least it'll nt b a regret 4 e rest of ur life. 不是一個會計較給多少的人。可能我給的永遠都不 夠 但我知道我 有努力的去給。

dearest CA frequent flyer, hope u had a safe flight! i shall cya again soon. mre rest, less alcohol.

Ice: gd luck 4 ur paper tml! i wanna cya aft ur examz. it ends on e 23rd rt? save 1 day 4 mi k. nid 2 talk 2 u! luvya!

eve: thanks 4 all e encouragement. i hope u'll work things out 2. sometimes i can't help but admit 愛情可以是一個女人的一切﹐ 但它永遠不會是 一個男人的一切。

会呼吸的痛

在东京铁塔 第一次眺望
看灯火模仿 坠落的星光
我终於到达 但却更悲伤
一个人完成 我们的梦想

你总说 时间还很多 你可以等我
以前我不懂得 未必明天 就有以后

想念是会呼吸的痛 它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛 看你的信会痛 连沈默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛 它流在血液中来回 滚动
后悔不贴心会痛 恨不懂你会痛 想见不能见最痛

没看你脸上 张扬过哀伤
那是种多么 寂寞的倔强
你拆了城墙 让我去流浪
在原地等我 把自己捆 绑

你没说 你也会软弱 需要依赖我
我就装不晓得 自由移动 自我地过

我发誓不再说谎了 多爱你就会抱你多紧的
我的微笑都假了 灵魂像 飘浮著 你在就好了

我发誓不让你等候 陪你做想做的无论什么
我越来越像贝壳 怕心被人触碰 你回来那就好了

能重来那就好了

這首歌在 說一個故事。一個很熟悉的故事。讓我聽了莫名的心酸。 有些事發生了﹐沒有的回頭﹐ 只會留下遺憾。

bits & pieces...

mre photostickers taken yday




been thinking alot recently. hearing alot of things. i juz remb so many bits & pieces of all e things i read, heard, said. they keep popping out in my head. haiz.. i only remb e gd stuff. 真的是中毒太深 ! where's e 解藥 ﹖ ﹖ ﹖

read stuff abt my horoscope tis yr.. looks pretty gd! wahahahaha~ if only it'll all come true.
wealth is gd- 4 $$ 2 come, i'll nid a job, participate in lucky draws or do investments. haha! only possible option 4 $$ 2 come is: go look 4 a job.

love is alrt- if i get a stable bf, tis yr will b gd. where's e rite guy??

health is also alrt.

oh.. gg 2 celebrate valentine's in advance wif eve later. oso celebrating 10yrs of frenship, celebrating she quit her job, celebrating my driver license's 2nd b'day, it's juz a day 4 celebration. so fun! will post pics tml.

tml is valentine's day- may all lovers b together. those w/o lovers, u'll get 1 soon. if there's some1 u like/love remb 2 tell them how much they mean 2 u. 愛一個人就要讓他/她知道 ﹗ 要幸福喔 ﹗ 情人節快樂﹗ ﹗ ﹗

ice: gd luck 4 ur examz!!! i'm sure nerdy ice will do well! let mi noe wen u r done wif it k. i wanna cya!
daffy: sorry i haben been able 2 talk 2 u. call mi tml.
shan: we really gotta mit up soon! ur pressie is wif mi!
lynn: looking 4ward 2 seeing u @ e airport. gosh! i miss u so so so much~ muackz! luvya!

新年快樂

過年了。。。this year's CNY feels alittle 怪怪的~ it's still gd 2 c tat others r enjoying themselves.. i 4got e bag of candies 4 my nephews. argh!

i carried him wen he was a baby... 他長大了﹐ 我變老了。


his little bro. used 2 b a shy kid. nw it's hugs wen he sees mi.

luv hate realtioship wif CNY

Argh.. been cleaning e whole afternoon yday... super sian lor... but we ended e day wif a shopping trip tat makes it so much beta.. CNY is juz a rush tis yr. still alot of cleaning 2 do. waiting patiently 4 年初一﹐ 4 my hong bao frm m&d.. i'm still like a kid! & of cuz e vain zz juz loves dressing up & catching up wif all my cousins. HAPPY HAPPY CNY!!!

wen out wif eve last fri.. took a few photostickers.. i really luv taking tis wif her.. tis is our tradition! celebrating 10yrs of frenship:

e biggest sticker we ever took.. stupid machine!! boohoo!




juz luv e 1 wif all e jewels.. dreamland!


偶像劇宣傳照。


celebrating valentine day in advance.. juz in case my 愛人 is bz tat day...

SO MUCH FUN...

haha... wen 2 st james cuz sharene wanted 2 go.. in e end we only saw her 4 like 15mins... spent rest of e time wif jin, ice & eve. it was juz a super fun nite... it's a date on 27th feb (wed, ladies nite @ bellini & power house)... any1 wanna join us?

CHEERS﹗


thanks alot my dear!


ALOT of funny faces... juz can't stop!

















yummy finger food!!


e 15 mins wif sharene...


our beri nice waitress...


of course, we r nt e only babes there.. "lucy liu" is still there.




our new fren: ray


been unhappie 4 e past 2 weeks.. all of a sudden i woke up feeling so happie tis couple of days despite all tat's happened.. i hope tis feeling wun go away.. apparently e yr of rat is a gd yr 4 e ppl born in e yr of e ox. hopefully it'll b e case. 我是頭快樂的小牛﹗和我一起你也會快樂﹗快樂﹐幸福﹐滿足。。

(^o^)

sorted a few things out.. truckloads of love 4 e ppl who help mi thru it.. dunno wat i've done in my past live 2 deserve so much. MUACKZ 2 all!

wen KTV wif eve yday.. wasn't really in e mood 4 it. but i wanted 2 go. it's still alot of fun! haha.. so happy 4 u! gg 2 b a student liao~

gosh! i nid some quality slp.. haiz.. i can function w/o slp but my body is breaking down. 睡神﹐ 你在哪 ﹖﹖ come visit mi!

Chinese new year is coming~

祝幸福﹐ 快樂﹐ 健康。感謝去年得到的﹐ 盼望明年會來的。

加油 ﹗ 加油 ﹗ ﹗ 加油 ﹗ ﹗ ﹗
找回我自己。怕就已經輸 了。 i muz remb tat. 去年的我太自私 ﹐希望今年的我會有進 步。between family, friends, lovers, any1 whom u care abt, honesty is very important.. i'm nt perfect, i haf so much room 4 improvement. pls help mi by telling mi hw u feel.

a really great gathering!

Yday was NYP day.. haha! had so much fun.. e uncles @ north canteen can still remb mi.. haha.. i miss e days man! e gathering @ waraku is great! 1st time so many of us turn up @ a class gathering.. All thanks 2 Jin 4 organising.. u r e greatest!

還記得嗎 ﹖ 02.05.2003


25.01.2008
all of us! (look @ e food behide us!)




我的愛人~


frm P6 to sec 2.. finally she has grown up.


Where's 10??


美女 Frm NYP SBM batch 2001


黑白黑


haben taken a pic wif her in awhile.


e 1 who din change much: 陳太

karma

Do u believe in tat? looking @ wat's happened recently, i begin 2 believe tat some ppl r here 2 repay debts frm their past life (debtors) while others r creditors.. mayb it's juz cuz i can't find another explaination 4 all tis..

There's a delicate balance in life, if anything happens to upset this balance, expect chaos.

(-_-") car load of 50yo

had a car full of 50yos today.. nearly drive mi nuts.. learning 2 b mre patient wif tis ppl.. but wen each question is repeated 5times, my patience runs low..
imagine: 1x mum
3x Aunties
1x uncle
it's like having a truckload of kids... @ least u can bribe kids wif candies & ice cream, u can't bribe a bunch of 50yo who keeps repeating e same topic over & over again.. all i can say is (-_-")

life is so fragile, so full of ups & downs.. mre compassion, patience & tolerance. zz has gotta learn tat.

smile zz (^-^)

zz is always happy.. smile smile smile smile smile... (^o^)

又被嚇醒了。。。

feel so pathetic... 4 e past few days wen i'm able 2 slp, i'll wake up aft a couple of hrs feeling so scared.. den of cuz i wun b able 2 get anymore slp... 我每天是被嚇醒的。。 這種感覺好恐怖。。

jia you jia you!!!

remb 2 kip growing- gotta cum back n up size my brain (nt my dress size). it's currently running on 1GB hardisk. forgetting alot of things. agrh! gotta remb remb remb!!

every1's asking mi a wierd question.
i really feel so (-_-")...

back in sg, it feels so strange

finally landed in sg yday.. chatted alot wif afew ppl. made frenz wif ppl sitting on both my left & rite. talked alot. still dunno wat i want. still can't make up my mind. it's interesting 2 c tat diff ppl haf diff views covering all aspects. both of them taught mi 1 veri impt thing. haf ur own mind. do wat u wanna do.

i miss my mum & dad but i'm @ a lost. dunno wat i shld do wen i came back. it feels so strange 2 b back hm in sg... 4 awhile nw, i've been calling a place in aussie hm, (i kept using e phrase 我家) it juz felt so rt. gosh. i miss uncle & auntie so much. i miss u so much. i can still remb e 1st time i met auntie. e way she squeezed my hands felt so familiar, like she has known mi 4 a long time, feels like e way ice squeeze my hands.

i saw a veri big problem wen i was there. i can hold auntie's hand but i haben held my mum's hand in awhile. so glad wen we started holding hands @ e aiport. wen there's sum1 2 b there wif u, it all seems easier. no matter who they r. srangers, family, frenz, lovers... now i un...

e biggest problem wif mi: 太隨便﹐ ok wif everything. can't make up my mind. tat's e worst thing i can do. cuz i can rt a wrong but i can't do anything if i dun choose. choices choices choices. i'm veri lucky tat i haf so many choices.

原來我很怕寂寞﹐ ﹐很怕一個人。很愛哭但常常不讓自己哭。

mind over body. haben been able 2 slp 4 2 days now. body's breaking down but my mind can't rest. 加油 ﹗ 我可以的 ﹗﹗

tots..

been very lucky tat i can cum 2 aussie, learn a couple things (including canto, i can un alittle nw), lead a diff life.. i will remb e time in sydney. alot of things i'll miss wen i'm gone. some of those things..

-auntie's endless u shld eat mre- u r so skinny. she's a reali nice person. an amazing i-dun-nid-2-slp mum. she has breakfast waiting 4 mi on e table nearly everyday (haben had tat in many yrs). her soup, herbal tea, ox tail stew... e weekend shopping trips, e walks..

-uncle who intro all e place he took mi 2. he has taught mi how 2 refuse auntie wen she wanna gif mi mre soup. haha.

-zaza. her barks wen i cum hm(she sneak out of e rm 2 greet mi yday), i luv tis dog. she's so funnie. i've been speaking mando 2 a canto speaking dog. i'm gg 2 miss chatting wif her. been trying 2 tell her tat i'm leaving soon (dunno if she un). 1 less person 2 share dinner wif her. very gd company wen i'm alone @ hm.

-bobo's new 2008 joey look. dog wif character- she pee on e carpet rite in front of mi cuz she's angry wif auntie. always smiling 4 e camera but always growling wen i try 2 gif her medication.

-e fishies, little tiger, my dearest long long,i'll always remb u... n mini z who always has alot of poo. starting 2 fall in luv wif fishes nw. i still wanna keep a long long somewhere..

-yum cha wif andes's mum

-uncle jo's desert! e mango pudding, bittergourd pudding, red bean soup wif tang yuan.

-shopping wif lynn.

-i'll miss being a hse wife. haha.

alot alot mre things i'll miss... hope i'll haf e chance 2 cum back again... alot of ppl 2 thank 4 making tis trip so wonderful..

lazy lazy z...

haf been pretty lazy recently.. din update my bloggie.. ok.. will post sum pics .. ARGH! can't upload e pics 2 blog! killing mi.. argh~~~ dunno if it's cuz e files r too big.. irritating!!! loads of pics 2 load.. loads of celebrations- b'days, graduation, x'mas, new yr..

30.11.2007- lynn's b'day, dinner @ sydney tower. beautiful place














01.12.2007- weekend @ blue mountian



















































there r still loads of pics 2 post.. this is only 1 week... no time today.. will post more tml...