(^o^)

sorted a few things out.. truckloads of love 4 e ppl who help mi thru it.. dunno wat i've done in my past live 2 deserve so much. MUACKZ 2 all!

wen KTV wif eve yday.. wasn't really in e mood 4 it. but i wanted 2 go. it's still alot of fun! haha.. so happy 4 u! gg 2 b a student liao~

gosh! i nid some quality slp.. haiz.. i can function w/o slp but my body is breaking down. 睡神﹐ 你在哪 ﹖﹖ come visit mi!

Chinese new year is coming~

祝幸福﹐ 快樂﹐ 健康。感謝去年得到的﹐ 盼望明年會來的。

加油 ﹗ 加油 ﹗ ﹗ 加油 ﹗ ﹗ ﹗
找回我自己。怕就已經輸 了。 i muz remb tat. 去年的我太自私 ﹐希望今年的我會有進 步。between family, friends, lovers, any1 whom u care abt, honesty is very important.. i'm nt perfect, i haf so much room 4 improvement. pls help mi by telling mi hw u feel.

a really great gathering!

Yday was NYP day.. haha! had so much fun.. e uncles @ north canteen can still remb mi.. haha.. i miss e days man! e gathering @ waraku is great! 1st time so many of us turn up @ a class gathering.. All thanks 2 Jin 4 organising.. u r e greatest!

還記得嗎 ﹖ 02.05.2003


25.01.2008
all of us! (look @ e food behide us!)




我的愛人~


frm P6 to sec 2.. finally she has grown up.


Where's 10??


美女 Frm NYP SBM batch 2001


黑白黑


haben taken a pic wif her in awhile.


e 1 who din change much: 陳太

karma

Do u believe in tat? looking @ wat's happened recently, i begin 2 believe tat some ppl r here 2 repay debts frm their past life (debtors) while others r creditors.. mayb it's juz cuz i can't find another explaination 4 all tis..

There's a delicate balance in life, if anything happens to upset this balance, expect chaos.

(-_-") car load of 50yo

had a car full of 50yos today.. nearly drive mi nuts.. learning 2 b mre patient wif tis ppl.. but wen each question is repeated 5times, my patience runs low..
imagine: 1x mum
3x Aunties
1x uncle
it's like having a truckload of kids... @ least u can bribe kids wif candies & ice cream, u can't bribe a bunch of 50yo who keeps repeating e same topic over & over again.. all i can say is (-_-")

life is so fragile, so full of ups & downs.. mre compassion, patience & tolerance. zz has gotta learn tat.

smile zz (^-^)

zz is always happy.. smile smile smile smile smile... (^o^)

又被嚇醒了。。。

feel so pathetic... 4 e past few days wen i'm able 2 slp, i'll wake up aft a couple of hrs feeling so scared.. den of cuz i wun b able 2 get anymore slp... 我每天是被嚇醒的。。 這種感覺好恐怖。。

jia you jia you!!!

remb 2 kip growing- gotta cum back n up size my brain (nt my dress size). it's currently running on 1GB hardisk. forgetting alot of things. agrh! gotta remb remb remb!!

every1's asking mi a wierd question.
i really feel so (-_-")...

back in sg, it feels so strange

finally landed in sg yday.. chatted alot wif afew ppl. made frenz wif ppl sitting on both my left & rite. talked alot. still dunno wat i want. still can't make up my mind. it's interesting 2 c tat diff ppl haf diff views covering all aspects. both of them taught mi 1 veri impt thing. haf ur own mind. do wat u wanna do.

i miss my mum & dad but i'm @ a lost. dunno wat i shld do wen i came back. it feels so strange 2 b back hm in sg... 4 awhile nw, i've been calling a place in aussie hm, (i kept using e phrase 我家) it juz felt so rt. gosh. i miss uncle & auntie so much. i miss u so much. i can still remb e 1st time i met auntie. e way she squeezed my hands felt so familiar, like she has known mi 4 a long time, feels like e way ice squeeze my hands.

i saw a veri big problem wen i was there. i can hold auntie's hand but i haben held my mum's hand in awhile. so glad wen we started holding hands @ e aiport. wen there's sum1 2 b there wif u, it all seems easier. no matter who they r. srangers, family, frenz, lovers... now i un...

e biggest problem wif mi: 太隨便﹐ ok wif everything. can't make up my mind. tat's e worst thing i can do. cuz i can rt a wrong but i can't do anything if i dun choose. choices choices choices. i'm veri lucky tat i haf so many choices.

原來我很怕寂寞﹐ ﹐很怕一個人。很愛哭但常常不讓自己哭。

mind over body. haben been able 2 slp 4 2 days now. body's breaking down but my mind can't rest. 加油 ﹗ 我可以的 ﹗﹗

tots..

been very lucky tat i can cum 2 aussie, learn a couple things (including canto, i can un alittle nw), lead a diff life.. i will remb e time in sydney. alot of things i'll miss wen i'm gone. some of those things..

-auntie's endless u shld eat mre- u r so skinny. she's a reali nice person. an amazing i-dun-nid-2-slp mum. she has breakfast waiting 4 mi on e table nearly everyday (haben had tat in many yrs). her soup, herbal tea, ox tail stew... e weekend shopping trips, e walks..

-uncle who intro all e place he took mi 2. he has taught mi how 2 refuse auntie wen she wanna gif mi mre soup. haha.

-zaza. her barks wen i cum hm(she sneak out of e rm 2 greet mi yday), i luv tis dog. she's so funnie. i've been speaking mando 2 a canto speaking dog. i'm gg 2 miss chatting wif her. been trying 2 tell her tat i'm leaving soon (dunno if she un). 1 less person 2 share dinner wif her. very gd company wen i'm alone @ hm.

-bobo's new 2008 joey look. dog wif character- she pee on e carpet rite in front of mi cuz she's angry wif auntie. always smiling 4 e camera but always growling wen i try 2 gif her medication.

-e fishies, little tiger, my dearest long long,i'll always remb u... n mini z who always has alot of poo. starting 2 fall in luv wif fishes nw. i still wanna keep a long long somewhere..

-yum cha wif andes's mum

-uncle jo's desert! e mango pudding, bittergourd pudding, red bean soup wif tang yuan.

-shopping wif lynn.

-i'll miss being a hse wife. haha.

alot alot mre things i'll miss... hope i'll haf e chance 2 cum back again... alot of ppl 2 thank 4 making tis trip so wonderful..

lazy lazy z...

haf been pretty lazy recently.. din update my bloggie.. ok.. will post sum pics .. ARGH! can't upload e pics 2 blog! killing mi.. argh~~~ dunno if it's cuz e files r too big.. irritating!!! loads of pics 2 load.. loads of celebrations- b'days, graduation, x'mas, new yr..

30.11.2007- lynn's b'day, dinner @ sydney tower. beautiful place














01.12.2007- weekend @ blue mountian



















































there r still loads of pics 2 post.. this is only 1 week... no time today.. will post more tml...

wahaha~

yippy!! i got a credit (61 marks) 4 IME.. wahahha.. no more skool!! keke.. enjoying sydney so far.. post some pics tml

last min..

haf been spending quite abit on gifts, blah & blah... ok, i did buy sum stuffs 4 moi self but onli 10% of it is 4 mi.. e rest is 4 alot of other ppl... gosh~ broke, broke, super broke(dad is nt happie 2 hear tat).

spent sunday cleaning e hse, looking 4 merlion. nv realise how difficult it is 2 get a merlion... haiz.. e 1s i saw were all pretty small & in e wrong colour (red & green merlions 4 x'mas?).. so HAPPIE wen i finally got e rite 1 (a little flawed but).

i bought e biggest toy i haf ever bought 4 a 30year old boy (-_-")... how much lynn & i sweat b4 we finally get tat stupid starwars plane 2 my car.. ARGH!!! (alrt.. alot of ppl r cursing now cuz i put stupid & starwars together... but i can tell u tat it's not fun carrying tat toy all over orchard...) e stupid things i do... it's bigger den i remb=loads of exercise 4 fatty z. had dinner wif daffy aft all tat shopping.. done sum catching up..

counting down e days b4 i leave.. as e days get lesser, e list of stuff i need 2 do gets shorter... finally... i think i'm done wif all e shopping... gotta pack all e barang in2 my luggage tml... it's gonna b a difficult task..

eve: chat mre tml k. hope 2 catch u in SYD
Daffy: gd 2 cya! cheer up k. sorrie 2 hear abt JW's frenz. will catch ya wen i get back. take care k.
Jin: enjoy ur hols! upload pics of cute guys pls..

to zz: less food, mre exercise.. 真的有一點胖 ﹗wish 4 luck on e 5th.. hope it'll b a day i can celebrate!

sth frm my past came back 4 mi recently.. nt a gd time cuz i've been a little stressed over tis trip.. funny thing was tat i tot i shld face it cuz i shld nt let it becum my fear juz b4 it happened.. dunno wat 2 say.. @ e pt in time, i dunno if gd bye meant tat u'll stay outta my life or tat it meant u r gonna do sth stupid... judging it now, u haben stayed outta my life so it muz haf meant tat u were gonna try sth stupid again... @ a lost 4 words cuz tis is e god-knows-hw-many-times u tried sth like tat.. it has been more than a yr.. Y haben u change? ur actions make mi feel like it's a yr ago minus all e hurt & pain... if it ever hurts mi nw it's becuz i feel 4 ur m&d... i may nt b a great daughter myself but compared 2 a yr ago, i think there's sum improvement...

人往往都是向前看 ﹐往前走。。。你卻沒變。我不知道該說什麼好。只知道當時我沒有選錯 。已經絕望了。不再對你有任何祈望 ﹐放棄了。很久以前就該放棄。。可能我學的比較慢。。但終于我學會了。你幾時才能學會﹖

mood swing, swing, swing...

奇怪。。。every1 seems 2 b so envious cuz i leaving soon.. but Y dun i feel tat happie. 別人出國我也出國 ﹐ 為什麼我出國像去打戰 ﹖i dun understand... PMS acting up... bad mood- good mood-bad mood-good mood????? ARGH!! hate it! 灰姑娘 has 2 go clean e hse now while my horri step sista is watching tv...

here's a couple of ppl i miss:
eve: where r u? haven seen u in awhile now.. 愛人﹐ 好想你阿 ﹗
lucy: how r coping? will chat wif ya soon b4 i go.. answer ur fone k! luvya~ baby jia you k!
e usual gang: wah! haven wen out wif u guys in donkey yrs...
可愛的小熊 :haiz.. 我幾時可以跟你私奔﹖﹖
e funnie Mr Ee: thanks 4 all e jokes..
jin: hope u'll mit ur 小 越 二號﹗﹗ muz intro 2 mi k... haf a gd trip.. take more pics of cute guys ar! keke...
YQ: i oso dunno wat u up 2.. catch up wif u soon K..

我是個小胖子。。。努力﹐努力﹐努力﹗﹗

好心情

haf been feeling pretty happy since yday.. frm e moment i wake up i feel so happy.. hehee.. i dunno y but i hope tis feeling wun go away... it's probably PMS, quite abit of mood swing recently.. it'll beta stay like tat cuz alot of ppl suffer wen it's bad..

bz packing my stuff 4 e aussie trip next wed.. alot more 2 do.. haf 2 start packing real soon.. muz oso get a haircut, paint my nails, buy a merlion ornament & a new pair of black patent heels (can't seem 2 find 1 i like, any1 c any gd 1s?).. haiz.. so much more 2 do.. doesn't help wen i haf a ohh-i'm-so-madly-in-love 21 year old by my side... she's BAD influence... muz stop her frm passing tat contagious virus 2 mi.. all e stupid stuff she's doing (i muz b more rational! no more stupid decisions) she's acting like a 16 year old, i can't act like 1 2... sometimes i really feel like smacking her esp wen she ask 你捨得嗎﹖(i feel like throwing a table @ her!) those words always come @ a bad time.. ARGH!!! haf been able 2 stop myself frm killing her so far..

忍~

i used a veri short time 2 c & experience alot of things tat i might nv haf e chance 2 do, see, feel... alot of growth in a short time is abnormal in finance term.. is tis abnormal growth substainable in e long term?

more risk = more return
seen tis alot of times in finance TB now it seems tat i can use it on myself..

alot of random tots popping up in my head now.. mayb it's like blood test. aft gg thru it, it doesn't feel tat bad... but u were 2 ask mi 2 do it all over again i'll get pretty mad...

thank u 4 lending mi ur ear... u'll mit ur Mr rite in a nice cafe soon.. 異國戀 ﹗ hahaha... waiting 4 ur wedding invites.. a baby 2 yrs later?? haha... mit up soon k.. hugs & kisses...

juz got reminded tat my results will b out soon... (-_-") last thing i wanna remember... 5th dec 2pm. 首映 of my results....

RIP auntie..

still alittle shocked frm e news. gosh! i dunno how 2 react 2 tis... juz recevied news tat ice's mum had passed away.. gg 2 visit her in a couple of hrs.. RIP untie.. din haf a chance 2 visit aft my examz. e last time i heard news frm ice, it was gd..

lucy baby, take care k. i'm lost 4 words.. u muz b strong 4 urself & ur grandma. u r a strong gal & u've got all ur family & frenz supporting u thru tis.. if there's anything we can do, let us noe. baby, we luv u!!

RIP auntie. pls bless her frm wherever u r..

unloading..

so many things on my mind rite now.. gotta unload sum of it.. perhaps becuz my world is small & simple, i think of everything e same way, Naive.. there r many things i do, yet i dun expect any return. now, it seems tat it has becum part of e routine, sth i shld do, nt a choice i haf anymore.. 本來剛剛找回那種感覺 ﹐現在只覺得很 冷﹐很遠。。。不開心想跑的遠一點但是卻沒用。。。

many times i juz take it all inside mi.. 我的一句不記得。。。沒記性的我﹐又忘記了一些我 說過的話。是我錯﹐我也知道。不是該尋找彌補的方法嗎 ﹖也許有些錯是彌補不了的 。一開始沒了解到事情的嚴重性。我的天真。mayb all along i'm afraid, i nv admitted it.. all tis juz adds 2 it.. 一點一點的加起來﹐現在。。。。

好累阿~

back frm BKK/pattaya.. so tired.. morning call @ 6am nearly everyday.. doesn't help wen we dun slp early... din shop alot.. juz bought a couple of dresses... pretty amazing huh? will upload e pics wen i get them..

haben had enuff slp aft examz... haha.. too many programs.. body needs 2 recover.. i nid alot of rest, quality over quatity.. haf time 2 slp now but doesn't help if i dun slp well.. haiz.. 親愛的 ﹐ 我好想你啊 ﹗﹗﹗ wondering if i shld go over 2 look 4 u... 我的睡神。。。

sometimes, i really dunno wat 2 do.. brain doesn't seem 2 process all e info properly.. nt enough rest or simply too insensitive? more rest today, will go & look 4 my 親愛的 tml.. loads of rest, a little shopping & tons of home cooked food will probably do me some good... gotta unpack den pack my stuff... 親愛的 ﹐你等我啦 ﹗

smiles (^-^)

keke... all e fun faces!


dinner @ Jumbo (east coast)

wahahaha.. somethings nv change! violent Z~


1st time ever: she feels so short


1st nite in melaka: Ji chang jie.
Yam Seng~


day 2: historical tour

Famous chicken rice ball




famous tourist attraction: 紅屋


真可愛 ﹐簡直是人見人愛 ﹗﹗


Miss Melaka & cousin


odd 1s out..


流氓 D 與熊貓 Z


Yeah! RM3 4 a pic wif him...


Is he a gd kisser??


1st round Dinner @ sampan. used 2 b a beri nice place wif live singer by e beach.. now they reclaimed e sea & there's no more singer. nt gg 2 go there anymore!


2nd round dinner @ Newton


day 3: breakfast with 大姨 ﹐Back 2 Sg

beri nice 肉骨茶


famous temple in Melaka


害羞的小公主


Sentosa
My bf (15 yrs later). ain't he cute??


Cafe Delma


classical siloso pic


Dinner @ e hawkers