Surprise, surprise!!!!!!!!

wahahahahahahahaha... had loads of fun yday... it was super funny & entertaining nite... loads of food & plenty of jokes... poor YC can't luff... his nose still hurts.. haha.. i think it was pretty hard on him... i mean e kinda jokes we crack!!!

we ambushed her @ punggol park.. it was supposed 2 b a "romantic" date between YC & jin but e special guests: lynn, eve, PX, swee yee & i were there 2 ruin their date.. haha.. evil joyzz is up 2 no gd!! haf 2 thank YC 4 being e middleman, thank all 4 coming....stupid 10 live so near still so lazy!

anyway, hope u had an unforgetable b'day.. u r a real silly gal, u noe tat? it's juz an examz, can still ask us out de! come out 4 awhile wun kill mi... anyway wasn't really studying yday.. heard tat u were alone @ hm & joyzz evil brain got up & running... haha... plan plan plan... tis is e only kinda plan j0yzz noe of!!! muackz.. luvya! i noe u luv mi 2..

幸福的壽星婆 (e process of unwrapping her pressie)﹗

dependent...

lived a slacker's day today.. eat eat eat, rot rot rot... juz abt 2 start studying now.. looked @ e tips & i felt real good... i mean u literally gave mi e questions 2 e examz so how hard can it get?? now i'm praying hard tat u r not fooling around wif mi cuz my life lies in ur hands... i'm super dependent on ur tips.. haf got no idea wat tis module is abt @ all.. all i noe is tat it resembles IFO... & i'm not gd @ IFO shit.. so god bless.. let e tips b spot on! or u'll beta kill mi!

Dinner wif mummy & daddy

haha as usual... there's alot of bickering abt wat 2 eat, where 2 go... can't stand e two of them... real jokers... esp my mum.. always ask mi "dumb" questions... eg. i told her tat there's only chicken left & asked if she wans it.. she asked mi wat am i having... there's only chicken left so wat else can i haf?? gosh.... i think i inherited my lack of brain cells frm her... haiz...

had andersen denmark ice cream juz now... yummy!! gonna haf sum oreo chocolate muffins later... tis is e stuff tat is contributing 2 my big butt.... i juz gotta live wif it... need 2 get bigger clothes... shopping, shopping, shopping!! i wanna catch spider man... any1 up 4 it??

oh....
HAPPIE BIRTHDAY JIN!!!!
muackz... truckloads of hug & kisses...
dinner tml or sth.. it's sad tat we can't go ladies nite as planned... ARGH! examz... boo!

Lucy: if i din remember wrongly, u r having ur 1st paper tml.. luck 4 it k... ooo... hope ur cousin's engagement wen smoothly...

dawn: eee... luck 4 e op... i'll start spoting questions soon (i hope).. will pass u my answers wen i'm done.... keep moi updated k.. hope u'll get well soon... muackz.. loads of hugs & kisses... take care baby..

daffy: as usual e sweet & kind daffy chose 2 forgive.. i hope tat u forgive but dun forget tat tis is not e 1st time tis has happened.. Remember wat u told mi.. love urself more, 4 goodness sake... i hope tis will b e LAST time u choose 2 forgive... it's nice 2 b forgiving, but u gotta choose who 2 forgive... take care... sun tanning wen i'm done wif examz! luvya!

YC: u r feeling beta? not bleeding anymore i hope.... take care... catch ya aft my examz... muackz...

PX: haha.. i noe u muz b bored... date u aft e 9th k... haha... i miss u!!!

lilo: dun b jealous k! i MISS u more den i miss px! haha... muackz... luvya.. take care!

feeling less panda

woke up a happy women today... haha... aft sum much needed slp, i feel less panda but i'll need more 2 get out of club panda... tat'll only come aft e 9th.. i'll hang on till den...

date for e day: mum & dad.. dinner @ god knows where... i'm supposed 2 choose but it really doesn't matter where we eat...

btw... lilo looks like this....

I'm a beautiful gal!

haha.. gone crazy over a movie tat made mi luff hard & cry juz as hard..
caught 200 pound beauty wif jin juz now... galz! it's a muz watch!! guys, if u dun wan ur gal 2 sob dun take her 2 tis 1... i look like a panda b4 i watch tis show, wen it ended, i look worse!

it got mi thinking... wat is beauty? weight? height? attitude? pretty face? flawless skin? hmmmm..... u r beautiful becuz u r u!!!! wahahaha... luv urself & u r beautiful! to mi it's all perception... it seems tat we r in a world where looks r so goddamn important.. we seem 2 haf forgotten tat e perfect body & face without a heart is juz so fake....

wat do u think? u r beautiful becuz i luv u! i'm beautiful cuz i luv myself... i'm flawed, bitchy, loud, violent, fun, noisy, dumb, smart, quiet, crazy, stupid, hot, slutty, tempermental, jealous, protective, sturborn, happy, hot headed, helpful, helpless, angry, sad, sweet, bitter, dramatic & sharp wif words... i'm juz mi.. which "mi" do u c? doesn't matter it's all mi...

in short, i'm a thick skinned & alittle over confident drama queen... haha... but i luv mi... luv all e songs in tat movie... esp tat "i'm a beautiful gal!" gonna get my hands on tat soon!

"only god can do what he wants to
we humans can only do wat we r capable of..."

kinda worried abt tat banana in shenzhen.. think he only understands a sentence or 2 outta 10 ppl say 2 him in mandrin.. poor guy.. flea bites? b careful there..

may there b light...

juz woke up.. got a rude shock... there's no light in e bathroom.. crap.. had 2 bath in e dark.. bro was asking if i wanted candles & i was thinking.. yeah, sure.. get mi a bathtub filled with bubbles & rose petals. oh add a little champagne & chocolates too if there's any...

dawn: gal.. u take care k... shall visit ya tml.. gosh.. damn suai 4 tis 2 happen juz b4 e paper... take it as u have more time 2 study 4 e next paper ba.. muackz.. loads of hugs & kisses...

帅哥： haf fun in HK.. i can tell u r gg 2 drink, drink & DRINK... since ur career & how much u drink seems 2 b correlated tat might not b such a bad thing aft all.. haha... anyway say hi 2 ur mum & dad 4 mi.. & luck 4 ur preso.. if they do wan it in mandrin, do tell mi abt it so i can haf a gd luff!!! keke.. i'm so mean! will miss ya ALOT... muackz... loads of hugs & kisses... luvya! enjoy~

hmm..

remember sum not really happy stuff frm e past... feeling a little down... still wondering if wat i did was rt.. mayb i shld juz let it go.. wat's done is done! i can't undo any of tat.. if only - wat powerful words...

i'll stop feeling bad if things r beta... i'll smile frm e bottom of my heart if it gets beta 4 u.. i mean it... feeling guilty over wat has happened.. every1 thinks i'm rt but i can't help but think i cud haf done beta.. can't get over myself... i hope she got over it.. it's not a pleasant experience, tat's 4 sure..

smile joyzz smile... u've got examz 2 wori abt!

ACHE...

did i not slp well or did was i too enthusiastic abt having fun yday?? my back aches, my neck's kinda stiff... my brain's not working... ewww... wat a bad start...

PS: lucy, i think u really dun like mi alot huh?? u nv pick up my calls! start picking up my calls k!!! haiz.. i nv understand y u haf a fone in e 1st place... can nv get u on e fone.. BOO!!

stressed over shit! ARGH!!!!

j0yzz is fcuked! not gd wif examz, not gd wif my mum.. wat else am i not gd @??? everything????? I'm only gd @ having fun! tat's kinda wat every1 is gd @.. i think now i noe y every1 thinks i shld b a tai tai

Answer being: i'm only gd @ having fun... as having fun usually cost money... so i'm gd @ spending money BUT not gd @ making it... only tai tais get tat i guess... BUT tai tais r smart aft all... they manage 2 get a rich guy as their husband! ARGH!!
once again i shld start looking 4 a rich guy 2 get married 2... but den again... i think no rich guy wud wan mi.. RICH GUYS, come out, come out, wherever u r!!

haiz... messed up... FCUK!!! damn.. gg back 2 study... i'm not gd @ it but i'm gg 2 force myself 2 make sumthing outta it.. been lucky 2 pass so far.. luck can only take mi so far.. haven't been lucky recently.. so.. too bad... i chose 2 go 2 uni.. can only curse myself 4 thinking tat i can do tis shit!
不要问，只要信！
i believe i can & i will b able 2 do it?? i'm bad @ examz but I THINK I CAN DO IT, i guess~ whether or not tis moron can do tis shit she's gotta go 4 e stupid paper.. haiz...

帅哥！！ i'm writing abt u... so R-E-A-D....
u said spirits enter ur body e nite b4 ur examz or sumthing.. haf u got their contact no?? i kinda need their help... btw, sorrie 4 not being able 2 go 2 HK wif ya.. tell ur mum tat i'm 4 real... if u skip all e @#^%^ language, i'm really a "NICE" gal.. haha... i'm a KIND & SWEET dumb ass wif a "little" temper & a "tiny" bit of violence!! wahahaha.. enjoy ur HK trip... haf fun.. will spend more time wif ya, (yup! 帅哥, it's U i'm talking abt rite now!)aft tis dumb ass is over wif her crapy examz.. Zoo trip wen u get back- i remember... aft zoo mayb zouk?? fun is e only think i can think of.. haiz..

complicated

aft a long chat on e fone yday, i feel so frustrated... i feel 4 u... it hurts so much juz 2 hear it frm u, i can't imagine wat u haf been thru... I'm sad, angry, seriously PISSED (@ u 4 giving her e chance 2 break ur heart again, @ her 4 thinking tat she'll get away wif it!)!!!!!

ARGH!! how did sumthing so rite become so wrong?? how can 2 ppl say such similar words?? wen i heard abt it , it all sounds so familiar! baby, help urself... dun ask how r u gg 2 do w/o her, ask wat can u do w/o her! it takes courage 2 step away frm it all... it takes courage 2 leave ur comfort zone, aft e 1st step, everything will fall in2 place... it's amazing wat 1 can do wen u wan 2... i dunno how i did it either but having u definately helped!

baby, i'm so so sorry i can't spend more time wif u! aft my examz k! we'll look 4 a slacker job, go sun tanning, clubbing etc etc... i might not b able 2 hang out wif ya now but i'm still here... gif mi a call... feel like crying & i'll cry wif u & gif ya a BIG hug! wen u wanna haf fun i'll appear & add more fun 2 ur day! baby, u r stronger den u think, u haf yet 2 discover tat.. i'm still looking forward 2 e day wen u'll take tat 1st step & put it all in e past! remember, Time heals all wounds! no matter how much it hurts, i'll b there 2 help! jia you k!

YC: get well soon!! hope ur nose wun get bloodier den it already is! but if it does get worse, i think i noe wat u did.. haha.. muackz.. take care!

Eve: i stood in tat bloody Q for 1/2hr in 3" heels.. wrong attire @ e wrong time.. things i do 4 a sista! u owe mi 1... let mi c.. i wanna try e cheese cake @ e cheese cake cafe (east coast)! aft my stupid examz, ur treat (i dun care)!!!

lynn: chat chat chat, rot rot rot, eat eat eat! miss doing tis stuff wif ya... but think i gotta skip e eat eat eat part... i've a big butt.. sobz (-_-)

jin, 10, dawn: 加油吧！ 姐妹们，we can do it!!!!!

lucy: hmmm.... luck 4 ur paper! pls do start picking up my calls! looking forward 2 mit sign!! muackz.. hugz & kisses... dinner aft my examz! leave my a spot on ur ever bz schedule! owe u a b'day pressie!

fellow BF 0201s: eeee..... wud like a class gathering sumtime in may/june... will cook up a plan.. get back 2 u guys soon.. pls do come k! wanna c how u guys r doing now.. miss e times we had! muackz

I'm becoming a big butt monster!

haha... haf been eating alot of junk food 2 keep myself awake while studying...
alot of junk food + sitting there & "study" = bigger butt! more trouble balancing on 3" heels... e weather sucks anyway.. rain rain go away! rain & 3" heels is a bad combination! tried it today... kinda lucky i din fall flat (yet)!
bigger butt + rainy weather = time 2 get sum flat pumps!
bigger butt = new clothes? can't fit in2 my jeans anymore... SOBZ! all my low waist (loose) shorts become tighter & shorter, all my mini skirts become micro minis.... haiz.. time 2 get longer/ bigger shorts & skirts??

haiz... i gotta 认真点... no more fooling around... gotta b determined 2 only haf 1 bad paper + 3 gd papers! need sum luck in spoting questions... e lecturers shld really gif us more tips... u dun wanna c mi again next sem neither do i wanna c u again next sem so we shld help each other! u gif mi more tips, i study them & get e hell outta skool! win-win situation! but.. u guys r juz not cooperative! haiz..

had dinner wif a drunken kid @ bugis juz now... i feel like a rag doll! had quite a few laughs... haha... no more headlocks pls! 三十(29.999 to b more accurate)岁了，成熟点！！ gd luck 4 ur miting tml morning!

gotta wake my brain up

woke up awhile ago but my brain doesn't seem 2 b working rite... system overload? my brain crash?? haiz... gonna gif it a wake up call... tried cold shower but din woke... up next: coffee, coffee & more coffee! mayb too much of my brain cells died yday... e remaining cells can only substain "normal" activities (i.e. no more studying??)! i'm cooking up stories again... so there r brain cells left... they juz refuse 2 study... gg on a strike huh??

WAKE UP GREY MATTER!! GET 2 WORK!

1 down 3 more 2 go...

i think i juz flunk a paper... haiz... e questions were kinda eewwwwwww........ i mean... there were terms i nv heard of till juz now... it shows tat i dun study everything huh?? anyway... it's so different frm e past yr paper... i mean excluding e 1 tat's AGES ago.. even e course name was diff den... e questions came frm tat OLD OLD set of paper... can u believe it?

wen i wasn't studying last sat nite, i was chatting wif lynn.. i realise we haf tis problem.... ppl always assume we r party gals... wat's up? i'm sure we dun haf e words "SPG" stuck/ written on our forehead! we r no SPGs (sarong party gals). we do party OCCASIONALLY, tat's it... haiyo.... believe mi wen i say i lead a boring life... 1 tat's full of books & crapy theories...

oh anyway, sum1's complaining tat i din write abt doing anything wif him aft my examz.. 帅哥！就是你了啦！！we shall go 2 e ZOO (not zouk) aft my examz... haha.. aft e 9th may, i'm a free women (@ least till b4 i get my results)... & it'll b FUN, FUN, FUN!!!!!!!

I hate examz!

haha.. i'm a idiot! is there any1 who likes examz?? anyway... still trying hard 2 scrape my way thru... I will pass.. somehow 1 way or another, i've gotta.. think it's abt time my dad fire mi frm my current job--> being a free loader... haiz... wat 2 do wen i grad? i shld b more concern wif how 2 pass my examz rite now...

Yo ppl.. wait 4 mi b4 u guys start e party k! my crapy examz end on e 9th may! ask mi out den!!!

things 2 do aft tis shit...
~organise a BF 0201 class gathering (i hope i can get more den e 5-6 usual peeps)
~get lucy her belated present
~dinner wif lucy, hanging out wif e usual gang
~clubbing, any1?
~clean up my room
~get out of club panda
~pasir ris park
~go 2 e zoo! eve, interested?
~camping??
~KTV!!!!
~my sis is coming back.. kinda miss her... haha.. it's so quiet w/o her.. no1 2 argue wif...
~hmmm...... get a job??? eee.... aft i have enough fun.

aft e endless list... i mean it goes on & on & on... if i have enough time 2 think abt it.. back 2 reality.. gg back 2 study... aft i finish swearing..

IFO sucks! y give mi a formula sheet without all e formula?? bloody hell. i've got very limited brain cells 2 start wif, aft e paper there'll b none left! haiz.. i've no idea wat tis crap is abt....

done... study...

nite @ dragonfly

haha.. still fooling around... dragonfly's fun...a combo of jay's hits, 90s music(songs tat i haven heard in a long long long time) & current ktv hits... haha!there was some canto but e 香港人 dunno all those songs.. e 新加坡人 there seem 2 love those songs... cultural diff?? i dunno... dun understand canto anyway... here's some pics

e babes...


picked him up @ e lost & found... he's a gd drinker so he drinks on my behalf.. haha! evil j0yzz is up 2 no gd! JW's jealous cuz i din take a pic wif her...


out comes my double chin...


daffy duck


was it e drinks, e songs or e mood? things seem so diff... & i wonder y have i got all tis little cuts on my hands.. wat did i do?? hmmmmm...

drive, drive , drive & study, study, study!

i drive wen i dun nid 2 & dun drive wen i shld.... hmmmm.... i realli gotta drive out more often... i hate 2 pay cabbies 20 bucks juz 2 send mi hm wen i can do tat 4 free.. (ie. dad's paying 4 petrol & parking so it cost nothing) Bratty joyzz is back... No more late nites out??

i gotta learn frm jin... shld change my nick 2 i GOTTA STUDY, STUDY, STUDY cuz i flunk tat bloody test.. will spot questions 4 IME tml... i'll beta b gd @ it or i'm SO DEAD! 10 juz reminded mi juz now... jin copied my answers & she got a credit but i flunk! is her eyesight perfect 2 spot juz e correct ans or is she juz plain lucky?? either way, i flunk so no more complains... i din study so i can't expect much...

hmmm... i think tis time round i nid an guardian angel wif a gd eye 4 spotting e rite questions! and 1 who's gd @ international trade & intro 2 futures & options! So ANGELS where r u??? i kinda nid ur help... yoyo... it's mi rite here! yup... i've got loads of junk food 2 share!

At tis pt in time joyzz has gone crazy & u muz b crazy to continue reading till here...

naughty little gal...

haha.. tat's wat i've been... din study e whole day... went out 2 play... messed around e whole day... flunk my IME test... was gossiping with eve, daffy & JW... hmmm..... 10am @ sembawang Mrt tml... Boring books make mi slpy but i've got no choice... shall make up 4 e time lost today..

1 little step closer 2 a cool b'day bash... time 2 get a new bikini?? e party theme is giving mi another reason 2 go shopping 4 1... hehee... looking 4ward 2 eve's b'day... woohoo! i wish, hope & pray tat e place will b available... muackz.. luvya 2 bits.. glad tat u r happy! i reali shld mit eric 1 day... haha... E magic & gong tao combo is real cool! hope ya enjoy dinner wif him tonite! we'll bullshit more wen we mit again...

OK! now i'm a little pissed.... can't sign in MSN... i shall live without it today...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, LUCY!!!!!!!!!! MUACKZ.... truckloads of hugs & kisses... kinda bz wif examz @ e moment BUT will mit 4 dinner soon k.... luvya 2 bits... take care! say hi 2 ur mum, grandma & ur cat wif attitude! miss ya alot...

Random pix

juz some pix i took wif my fone recently... full of memories...

Wen back 2 NYP 2 study today... haha.. Miss tat place... miss those old times...

Swing, swing, swing... hee... Use 2 play here all e time... Lucy, dawn remember?? i use 2 drag e 2 of them wif mi...



Miss e signs...


how many birthday celebrations did we haf there?? haha... i remember we had carol & Iskanda's there...


back in those days wen i was in poly, it's always telling mi i'm late... haha... hate tis big red clock...


I remember throwing jean in2 tis pool on her b'day... got caught 4 it... haha... lucy, jean remember??


kinder surprise! wen was e last time u had it??


My best budds... luv them 2 bits...

Happy, sad, dotted...

heard a voice i wanted 2 hear... met a gf i wanted 2 mit... bought a bag i like... haf an exciting plan ahead.. haha... Eve's b'day present will b an unforgetable b'day bash??? hahahahahaha... I luv great parties! we r gg 2 make it work, gal! Yippy~ yippy~ YEAH!

dear gal.. it hurts mi 2 c u get treated like tat... u haf given enuff chances! it's time 2 put it 2 a stop( @ least i think so)! as a fren, as a sista, i haf a question 4 u: Will some1 who luv u hurt u like tat? ask urself tat & look 4 e answer in ur heart... GET IT RITE!!!! baby, i can't help u if u dun wanna do anyhing abt it... as a fren, as a sista, e decision is 4 u 2 make... watever it is, i will respect it & i'll support u... juz gif mi a call & tell mi abt it... u r always there wen i nid u... i wanna b here 4 u 2... a shoulder 2 cry on, a fren 2 lean on, a listening ear, all in 1... muackz... cheer up k!!

有时我只想冷静一点。。。 我知道我的脾气不好，一发不可收拾, 所以一直try 2保持冷静！但也许我太冷静了，你把“我的冷静”当成“我不紧张你”。。。 I dunno wat 2 do... 想给你自由，给得太多怕你觉得我不在意你，给得太少我怕你觉得不够。。。It's a (-_-") situation... It's not because i dun care! somethings r beyond my control & i noe it... so i try not 2 over react. simple as tat...

hyper joyzz is back...

hahaha.. i'm so so so full of energy since yesterday... yippy ya ya, yippy yippy ya!! yippy is a good name... hahaha...wen bowling wif e usual peeps last nite @ OCC. It's team yippy (aka jin, YC & mi) VS striker (aka PX & SY) haha... wat arrogance! Striker huh? we beat them! hahaha.. It's pure luck so i shudn't b so yaya... It was an exciting game.. haha... Nice music too.. retro den R&B.. felt like dancing! hehee... aft tat, it's supper @ e same old place den hm sweet hm... reached hm @ 4am, studied till 6...

woke up @ 12.30 2 collect my PC... It looks damn ah beng... beng 2 e max! dunno wat happened... haiz... did my chore of e week.... (ie. mop e floor...) was blasting stephanie's songs thru out... my neighbours muz b cursing.. haha... now, i'm outta energy... think i'll take a nap den wake up 2 study sm more... haben touch my notes yet..

Tml's program: go pay my respect 2 my grandparents in e morning & mit eve 4 dinner... shall study wif time in b/w... i hope i'll b able 2 study... got so much on... Lucy's b'day is coming... presie?? any ideas any1???

PS: lucy.... luvya 2 bits... missya like hell! dinner next week?? muackz!

j0yzz is gg 2 zzzzzz..... snorez~

My ideal job...

having my final examz soon... so every1's curious abt wat am i gonna do aft i grad... Well... my answer 2 tat is usually: "i'll think abt it wen i graduate!" tat answer seems 2 scare alot of ppl... yea yea... i'm a slacker & u guys noe it... so y kick up a fuss??

e funniest thing is tat most of tis ppl think tat i shld get married 2 a rich man & b a tai tai... Well... I wud like tat 2 but i seriously think no rich man wud wanna marry mi... haha... I dunno y most ppl can't imagine me working... eee... i'm juz a normal gal... mayb i slack more den others?? e way i dress?? haha.. i think it's cuz ppl can't imagine me in a 9-5 job wearing typical OL clothes... Well... i'll let u ppl noe wen i get my 1st "real job" haha... be it a tai tai(near zero chance) or a normal OL.. I can adjust 2 my environment.... so let's wait & c...

PS: YO... any rich man wanna marry mi??? i can do alittle cleaning & stuff like tat but i'm applying 2 b a tai tai so i dun think skills like tat r needed... I can act like a bimbo... hmmm... mayb i am 1 (mayb not tat gorgeous but will do i guess)...
let's c... i think i haf all e "skills" needed 2 b a tai tai... eee...

~ordering e maid around --- check
~ability 2 act dumb wen needed --- check
~go 4 manicure/ pedicure/ facial/ spa etc --- sure, if u r footing e bill, y not??
~have "intelligent" conversations (abt politics & nonsense like tat) --- sure, with a little research
~look like a million bucks -- sure, if u pay a million bucks, i will look like a million bucks

guess tat's abt it... haha.. any takers??

yawn....

gd morning.. haha... i juz woke up... can believe it rite it's nearly 5pm & i juz woke up...

woke up @ 6am today... wen has was e last time i did tat? last sem's examz?? forgotten... gosh... 6am! e sun's not even out yet but i cudn't go back 2 slp so... saw bryan wong @ clake quay(was on my way hm).. 10am in e mrning.. too tired forgot 2 take a pic wif him...

anyway... wen i reached hm, there was tis icy stare(=MUM) waiting 4 mi... haiz... wat did i do wrong again?? i told u tat i'm not coming hm & u make a fuss. & wen i dun tell u tat i'm not coming hm u make a even bigger fuss! so which is e lesser of e 2 evil?? sometimes i really dunno which 2 choose... haiz... i gif up! e battle b/w us has been happening 4 e past 21yrs, haven't we learnt sth?? i think i did learn sth ---> i juz gotta live wif it... she's playing mahjong now.. beta win sum $$ so she wun b so pissed!

hee... new fone...

hahaha... got a new fone! yippy... think i will grow 2 love it.... cheers! thanks dad!

I'm a pig...

having been slacking as usual... wen out 2 have a meal wif ben yesterday... haha... he told mi he was dying of hunger... but it seems as if i'm e 1 who's starving... had a ramen set... it was quite alot yet i finished 80% of tat... aft tat it's time 2 nua wif a gd cup of hot belgium mocha & vanilla ice cream @ haagen daz... sounds gd & taste great... no room 4 more desert... otherwise... i wud haf more!!!

wen 2 mit e usual ppl aft tat.. bowling @ OCC.. it was a nite filled with fun & laughter.. hahahahaha...
Jin + PX + j0yzz = XXX???
Lynn + YC + yee = Lynn???
hahahahaha... we beat them!!!!! we were damn lucky... e only consistent player in our team is PX & we managed 2 beat them... (-_-") by 1 point in e last game... hahahahhaaha...

had supper aft e game... fish & chips + 叉燒包... once again, i wiped out everything...

wen 2 skool today.. 4 investment tips... haha... copied so much nonsense.. was raining heavily ( rain, rain go away! come again wen i'm driving!)... luckily daddy & mummy decide 2 pick mi up aft all... hehee...
dinner = fish head "steamboat" @ whampo market... YUMMY!!

slacking....

haha... today, i'm doing wat i luv most... slping, eating, slacking... dunno wat's wrong wif mi.. have been eatting alot... din realise it till last sat @ Jack's place... mayb it's becuz i can't slp alot so my body reacts by getting mi 2 eat alot?? dunno... dun care as long as i can fit in2 my clothes....

plan, plan, plan...
j0yzz shall plan which questions 2 answer 4 e IFO & investment paper.. hoping 2 cook up some gd answers! will cook up more answers 4 IT & IME paper wen i get enough "research" materials...

beginning 2 wonder wat will i b doing next weekend... Jolin's concert is so so tempting... but i promised tat i'll... so wat shld i do??

Craving 4 apple crumble now... shall i make 1 4 myself??

Mad rush...

Is history gg 2 repeat itself? is j0yzz gonna flunk her International Trade test like she did with her Macroeconomics test? God knows....

Seriously, e RMIT needs some feedback from people like mi!!! 40% weightage 4 a MCQ test?? WHY can't u juz split it into 2 20% test?? wat's wrong with tat?? haiz... People @ RMIT r like mi... dunno how 2 plan... e timetable 4 tis semester seriously sucks!!!!!! i could fool around & do nothing 4 e 1st 2 months cuz there was nothing on... hohoho~ no test, no nuts! in march they decide 2 kill us all... test & assignments r all due in march... so sweet of u!!

Anyway, many thanks to a VERY VERY generous Mr Ho... haha.. If i din hear wrongly, i think he said tat all of us pass tat assignment + test weightage... I luv u 2 bits !!! haha... a little encouragement 4 us all...

j0yzz is gg back 2 her BORING BOOKS a little happier!!!

Slacker!!!!!!!!!!!!

well well... In a really gd mood since yesterday! haha.... even wen i noe it's not looking gd 4 e IEM test yesterday... haiz! e lecturer gave us e wrong tips.. well... if his predictions r tat gd den he wud already b a millionaire now... i mean he shld b making LOADS in e stock mkt, y wud he even b teaching?? & i wonder if RMIT had a new lecturer 2 set tis test... e questions r so "creative" tis time round.. watever... wat's done is done...

hung out wif my rotting partner, eve, yesterday... As usual... we chatted non-stop... haha.. so much fun...

some1 who i can nv run outta things 2 talk abt (eve)
+ happy food (chocolate, coffee, pasta, ice cream)
+ a nice place 2 hang out
+ a little shopping mood
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successful gal's day out!
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i'm 1 happy & contented women.. TMNT wif e usual gang later... WONDERFUL!!!!!!

time out...

pretty burned out... need 2 take some time off... need to find myself... haha..
time out = need some time slacking wif e ppl who noe mi like e back of their hand! need 2 spend time alone... i wanna chat, stone, slack, rot, eat, slp wif my rotting partners (partners in crime, u know wat 2 do!!)... wanna be daddy's gal... i wanna b able to juz be myself... Do all tat nonsense i used 2 do so often!

all tat can wait till tml... gotta go & study 4 econs now...

I'm so temperamental... i'm so tired... life's like tat, i guess...

hehe...

got back my camera but was too bz 2 take a look @ all e nonsense tat was taken... looking back...




haha... so funny! can't help smiling wen i c tis pics...

又被嚇到了﹗

crazy ass! scared mi.. wat e hell! was on my hm juz now wen tis guy ran aft mi trying 2 catch e lift... so i held e door open 4 him thinking he's my neighbour or sth... i mean he looked @ mi like he noe mi... on e way up, he juz kept staring @ mi... i nearly freaked out! i tot he's a 色狼 or robber! suddenly, he wen "can i get 2 noe u?"

WTF?? can't u ask mi on e street or sth?? follow mi in2 e lift? 最近已經驚嚇過度﹗再這樣嚇我﹐我會瘋掉﹗大哥﹐你就饒了我吧﹗不要耍我了﹗Anyway, he's abit kuku lor... scare mi like tat... so watever... i'm juz glad tat he's not a 色狼 or robber! counting my blessings... do assignment, do assignment....

I'm having a bad day!

An idiot woke me up tis morning & told mi tat his mechanic quoted a price of $2300 for the repair... ASSHOLE!! WTF! U juz made today e sweetest day of my life... BLOODY HELL!!! (and e list goes on... I curse & swear & i curse & swear...) It's not like i ruin ur whole bumper or something!! F*** u!!! I freaked out... call my pals & I told my dad abt it... cried cuz i feel so bad... my dad is so sweet... hehee.. Din even scold mi... my mum is going on & on abt it.. thanks man! tat's wat mums do, i guess... Now i'm siting in front of my PC, looking like a ghost/panda, still cursing & swearing...

我知道是我错，不该顶嘴但不要再念了。。。我也不好过， 我也会 feel guilty！I know i've caused alot of trouble... I'm sorry i did... I'm gald tat i wasn't too serious, i'm gald tat no1 got hurt... 也许我没说是我不对，我只是想大事化小，小事化无。。。

行尸走肉

因为吓到了，所以我的人是醒着的但脑子却不见了。。。 Restless... Can't focus... 做什么都不对。。。 Did i misplace part of my brain when it happened? can't even type properly anymore.. 累了但睡不下！该做的却做不了！ i'm so unproductive @ e moment & it doesn't help tat i haf an assignment deadline... haiz... 好无奈！！！looks like i'll haf 2 go find my brain back b4 it's too late... To think tat i dun haf much to begin wif, now i haf juz a itsy weesy bit left... How am i gg 2 function properly? 行尸走肉 is juz rite to describe mi now...

Dotzz....

financial report = Key to investment Assignment
Investment assignment = WTF kinda bullshit u wan?
tired j0yzz + financial report = 危险!
Scared j0yzz + dear pals = thankful
Scared & tired j0yzz + cough syrup = Zzzzz

Now tat i'm awake, time 2 bullshit 4 my assignment...

一个奇怪的感觉！

一次偶然的相遇，让我们认识了彼此。。。才认识了短短的两个星期，我们就陷入了一个无法收拾的局面~ 我也不知道为何我如此的匆动！做了这个决定，我不希望有一天会后悔。。。我没有信心，因为我趁败给一个[爱]字， 我不想从来一次。。。 不知从何时开始，我对自己，对爱，失去了信心。总觉得要一心一意的去为此一段感情很难。。。我觉得我和他的世界有天地之差！在一个很不同的环境成长也就算了。。我觉得我还是个没见过世面的小太妹，而他是个经历过很多风雨的上班族。。。也许是我想的太多了，才刚开始我不该考虑那么多！就跟着感觉走，船到桥头自然直。。。是我的，总就会回到我身边，不是我的，是绝对强不来的。就然它自然的发展吧！我应该乐观点！也许他就是那个对的人。。。

Fun @ e bar by e beach

Hanging around sentosa all day... haha.. well lotsa changes since i last went there... There's this gorgeous bar with a pool by siloso.. How cool is tat? Had drinks in e pool, food by e pool & wat makes it beta? Great company! But i was a fool... I 4got my flip-flops... ended up with heels @ e beach... how stupid can 1 get? how attention seeking can i get?? haiz.. watever... I still had fun & tat's wat tat matters most!

wanted 2 catch a movie aft siloso but we couldn't get any good tix so ended up @ xing wang in ceni... haha... I'm currently on a get-fat-soon diet! Mr 42, u keep feeding me like tat & u'll haf 2 get me a new wardrobe! mayb by den u'll ditch me cuz i'm no longer skinny!

Haf 2 play catch up wif all e nonsense(assignments & shit) tat i'm suppose 2 do... National library tml?

The meatball that ate manhattan...

Skipped IT lec today but i was really tired.. gotta take my cough mixture more often & rest more 2 get rid of tat stupid flu bug... Wen 2 NYDC @ heeren 4 diner.. it was great as usual... i can't help but wonder where did all e cute guys go? 帅哥帅哥，你在哪里？？

瘋狂的24小時。。。

haha... I drove every1 crazy when i decided 2 go 2 m'sia w/o any advance notice! My bad! It was irresponsible of mi 2 juz leave like tat w/o letting my parents noe... 嚇到了吧﹗ It's so mi 2 do things w/o thinking properly... 衝動﹐放縱﹐任性也只是暫時性的﹗我找回了我自己了﹗ Found tat happy-go-lucky, nutty, chatty, crazy gal hiding deep inside mi... Now tat it has surfaced, I guess it's here 2 stay, @ least 4 awhile... So hang on peeps~ 就讓我暫時做個快樂的瘋子吧﹗

when green fireball spitting dragon meets Mr 42

haha... had a fun nite yesterday... A tiny gathering @ my house with ice, jin, SY & PX.... As usual it's full of laughter & crap... It ended early though... Ice had 2 catch e bus home... And none of us wanna think abt where 2 go... So it was back home 2 ZzZzzzzzz.....

I went out 4 a 2nd round of fun... with Mr 42... hang out @ Jln kayu & yishun till 3+... haha... i can drive 2 Jln kayu! haha... It's amazing~ had loads of fun... Now i'm wondering how am i suppose 2 study 4 my test on mon.. IFO becomes UFO... Green fireball spitting dragon becomes ET!

KTV rocks!!

Had so much fun with e usual peeps yesterday... haha.. we rock! Finally met ice yesterday... Had dinner together! pity she had 2 leave early.. Jean was there 2.. she also left early... Daffy, daffy, daffy couldn't make it again... she's having examz so she's forgiven... good luck 4 ur paper!

as usual, din noe wat 2 do aft dinner... & off 2 party world we go... haha... think everyone had fun! i hope every1 did... hee! r we gonna haf more fun tml? i think we r... can't fall sick now... wanna haf loads more fun...

hope 2 c e usual peeps tml... My house? Mahjong anybody? bring oranges k! bring some 4 ice 2... cya(i hope)...

fun, Fun, FUN!

I've been having loads of fun recently... St James rocks! & that's it...

I wanna be who i really am without hurting the people around me... Stuck between who i am & who i should be... Troubled... System overload... gonna crash soon... Why do i give a damn anyway... What the heck*

bored... TC 一口天後。。。

My PC broke down again... haiz... hard disk gone.. Gonna ask li ling for some help....going to Sim lim this saturday... If it breaks down again, I'm going to dump it & get a laptop...

I'm supposed to be studying for my investments test but i'm so so distracted.. read up till the third page of the notes & i seriously don't know what it's talking about... i only remember "an investment is a current commitment of resources for a period of time in expectation of future resources greater than the current outlay."
haiz... gotta put in more effort...

going to send my sis off later... hope that she'll have a safe & enjoyable trip... also hope that all the stuff she pack will come in handy... haha...

The fool?!?

You are The Fool

The Fool is the card of infinite possibilities. The bag on the staff indicates that he has all he need to do or be anything he wants, he has only to stop and unpack. He is on his way to a brand new beginning. But the card carries a little bark of warning as well. Stop daydreaming and fantasising and watch your step, lest you fall and end up looking the fool.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Was happy... Am sleepy.... is still pissed...

Yippy... I went new year shopping yesterday... haha... It was so so last minute... At 3pm i received li ling's call. And voila! I reached bugis @ 4.30pm... haha... Was so so happily shopping, when i met my cousin... one whom I only see during Chinese new year... and met Joey... she took awhile to recognise me... haha.. finally we completed our shopping trip, had dinner & headed home... When through what i bought with my mum & i think the dresses i bought were too short... My mum thinks they are tops not dresses... think i'll wear those leggings with them... Otherwise, i'll drive her nuts...

Wanted to sleep but somehow i ended up at causeway point watching "the unseeable" with the usual people... the movie was ok.... scared the hell outta me! It did what it's suppose to, scare me silly... Supper @ 888 before heading home, where i discovered that e bagful of earrings i bought is gone! WTF!!!! Haiz.. Dunno where i dropped it... Sucks! love those earrings! Go back & buy again?? sobz...

Mahjong once again...

When to visit ice's mum at KK with the usual gang yesterday... Glad that she'll be discharged today! Think ice will very busy preparing her mum's surprise! Hee... I hope she love all that work ice put in...

After the visit, it was a case of finding a place to play mahjong! We ended up with YC's place... Took 'kuku' jin to Compasspoint before we went YC's place to buy makeup... haha... Jin & makeup?? there seems to be no link! Haha... It was so fun shopping for makeup with her... Will she be able to remember all my instructions?? haha... Wait & we shall find out... Had pudding milk tea whle waiting for 10... after we met 10...

It's back to mahjong at YC's place... And 10 & i won... dottzz... Just a little though... Our bets are tiny... That's all i could afford... And of course we had our usual chicken cutlet! Good food, lovely people & an activity to keep us occupied! What more can i ask for?? In e end, I was so so so tired... By the time i reached home & finish bathing, it was already 3.30am... haha.. And i slept till now... Poor jindi has to work today... Wonder how is she coping...

I wanna go New year shopping!!!!!!!! ON CALL for shopping khakis!!! Anyone available?

tired, achy & sick...

My back hurts, my neck hurts, my arm hurts... My nose broke down & i can't seem to be able to keep my eyes open... What's wrong with me? To think that i had 2 days of rest... But I was kinda bored though... No car, too restless to stay at home... Yet, I'm too lethargic to drive...

Gosh... There's something growing on my eyelid... cyst?? Going to a doc soon... Another specialist? First, it's multi nodular goitre... Harmless but can be unsightly... Now, it's my eye... WTF.. I'm growing lumpy everywhere?? Haiz.. Never take your health for granted... Perhaps i eat too much & won't grow fat so all e food become lumps?? Stupid me... What kinda theory is that?? Whatever... So many illness, need a doctor boyfriend!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha...

Badminton...

Finally i exercise... haha.. freaking tired now... so damn sleepy.. Can rest at home tomorrow.. I've got no classes! YIPPY!! haha... Shopping on thurs & mahjong on fri?? so busy with having fun! gotta fork out some time to study.. 加油吧！读书，读书，读书！！

yo~ 我回来了！

Bratty~
Not in a good mood right now... Have to take public transport to school ... WTF! morning class tomorrow & I'll have to squeeze with alot of people... SOBZ~ I know i'm acting like a brat right now.... But after driving to school for so long, I'm kinda used to e idea of having a car at my beck & call... I'll have to be normal tomorrow! No more bratty attitude!

Upsetting
Just heard e news that Taiwanese actress 许玮伦 passed away yesterday after getting involved in an car accident.. Oh god~ She's so pretty... It's such a shock! I mean she was only 28. She was in her mini cooper when it crushed with a truck.. she wasn't e driver though... Gosh! just saw pictures of her car.. It's totally SMASHED!
马路如虎口- 这是如此的真！Please do be careful on e road... haiz.. Life's often unpredictable... So do live every minute to e fullest!

Ice: You must be strong k. we are all behind you... You know where to find us when you need help! Please don't hesitate to call if you need anything k. Take care my dear! Will visit you again some time this or next week...

旅行？！？
Well.. e KL trip was pretty fun... Funny stuff happen everyday.. haha... my dearest pals just discovered that i snore... oh crap.. now e whole world knows... Whatever~ Shopping was only so so at mid valley... Have to thank YC's uncle & aunt for their gracious hospitality! Their house is so so so beautiful... When can i ever own a place like that? And e fireworks were so so so so GORGEOUS!! It'a a pity we miss e ferris wheel.. I'm sure there's a next time...

As usual, it's gambling at Genting's Casino De Genting & Starworld! It's e 1st time i went in... But i got bored soon after... though it's a different story on YC's side. It's one of his favourite activities... haha... I didn't make or lose anything, all thanks to YC's generosity! No.. I think i made RM50 bucks... Thanks man! MUACKZ... Luvya! haha... After this trip, PX & jin's 8 yrs friendship blossomed into.... She has found the perfect husband! i mean PX is 我们公认的完美老公，so jin will be blissful... Mr Ee was so so quiet today... I think he didn't get to sleep much yesterday cause i was snoring... So sorry... have a good rest tonight ba!

明天
Badminton 6-8pm at ChengSan CC... with i dunno who... i think most prob e usual gang. Plus 10... Think this will be e last outting before PX goes to India... 茶茶熊， 我会非常想念你的！muackz~

boo! I'm back!!

hee... got my new 19" moniter... Wahahahaha... A little too big for my liking but since my dad wants it to be bigger then bigger it shall be... Haven't been online for some time cause i'm too lazy to use my bro's & sis's PC~ don't like to impose on them... whatever...

haha.. Heard from Ice today... Yup.. She's back!! Yo people, ICE baby is back! She says hi to everyone... She'll be in touch (I hope!)... Going to plan a gathering for BF101 when i get back from KL...

Oops.. Did i tell you people that i'm going to KL with jin, 茶茶熊，Mr Ee & Mr Tan... Genting?? Gambling?? but i'm not a gambler... hmmm... I bet it'll be loads of fun! I mean comeon it's these people that i'm going with!

sianz...

1st day of skool... haiz... the lecturer's writting sucks! I must admit that my handwriting isn't the best but at least it's legible!! The notes are so short, yet he can go on & on & on... Hmmm... skool, skool, skool... It's the usual i guess...

What an UNFORGETTABLE new year!

Yo... Happy New Year people!!! Let me see... Wish you guys Health, Wealth, Luck & love for the year ahead!! Yippy!!

Crazy new year I had:
there's a first for everything..
~1st movie where the cinema & the 售票员 are of the same age? Where the uncle is a joker (小妹，我要看你。。的证件”)

~1st meal of the year = Chicken Mc nugget meal @ West coast park.

~1st injury of the year = A sprained ankle (一只猪脚) @ Adventure playground.. I really had an adventure there... though my 猪脚 is not feeling too good right now...


~1st "I'm so so goddamn pissed" situation of the year = When those TWO ASSHOLES stole my parking lot!!! (piece of shit!!$!%!#%#$@**@$@%*)

~1st camping trip of the year = pasir ris park. What Pasta bianca? Didn't fill up my tummy @ all... Setting up a tent @ night?? Dottzzz... But WE MADE IT!!! YIPPY!!

~1st time i played indian poker... & the bets are.... gosh... you don't wanna hear about it.. let's all forget it...

~1st present of the year = a bling top Jean bought from taiwan. THANKS!! love it! MUACKZ..

~1st alcoholic drink of the year = Grapefruit Bacardi breeze... NICE!

~1st time i popped open a bottle of champagne... Ewwww... I don't like champagne. Pretty, bubbly but burp-py...

~1st reckless driving session = outta pasir ris park just now...

All this with the best friends one can have... Thank you! Jin, Mr Ee, Mr Tan & Cha Cha xiong... There's alot more fun to come... No more indian poker & No more reckless driving!

今天~明天~明年

明天是2006的最后一天。。。 又过了一年，我又老了一岁！I've been through alot this year... 我失去了我最爱的人，我看到了人的本性。We spent 2 years of bliss together. Inspite of all those heated arguements, nasty words, I loved you with all my heart & soul. We were in love & everything else didn't matter. That is all in the past. You made a choice & it was not us. I tried many ways to change your mind but it did not work. In the end, I chose to respect that decision & move on.

For the first time in my life, I didn't sleep for god knows how many days, I skipped plenty of meals & I cried plenty of tears... All of that in exchange for an important lesson in my life. The people who care most are usually those I neglect. 最不脐眼的人才是最重要的！ Although it was tough, thanks to those people who believe in me, I managed to recover... I can never be the same again. No more happy-go-lucky, I-don't-give-a-damn attitude... 我会学着如何做一个更好的我。

Another semester has passed! Didn't put in enough effort during all those lectures but I've managed to scrape through. I will find that determined part of me & put more effort in this coming semester. It has been tough & it will get tougher but I will work harder! 我们一起加油吧！只要你相信你做得到，you are half way there.

Thank you, my dearest friends & family! Thank you for not running away when I'm in tears (i know it's a terrible sight!). Thank you for those words of encouragement. Thank you for cheering me up! Thank you for believing in me. Most important of all, thank you for being part of my life.
因为有你，我的生命才完整。
joyzz & her 8 friends = plenty of fun filled days

What is wrong with me?

不开心。。。Whatever i do, I can't seem to put my heart & soul into doing it... I need to Focus... 我到底这么了？？ 心不在焉！~WIERD~ Perhaps i should just reboot my brain... Tinkle with the wiring & I'll be me again... I wanna be able to put my heart into every laugh, every tear, every bit of anger... Not just be numb... 以前潇洒的我呢？不见了吗？Where did i leave that part of me? It's just a lame posting...

The holiday...

Just leave everything behind to start finding myself in a place where nobody knows me? What a good idea... Will try that out when I have a chance... haha... The hoilday, what a great way to have one. Anyway, i love that movie! You guys gotta catch it! Yummy people, great scenes!

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY 21st cha cha 雄！Have a great day ahead k! Cya when you book out k?

Looked up the camping permit thingy.. It's on the National parks board webby... We can only camp at:
~Changi Beach Park
~East Coast Park
~Pasir Ris Park
~Sembawang Park
~West Coast Park
~Pulau Ubin

One part of the site says:"A camping permit is not required if you are camping on weekends and public holidays." Which means we do need a permit on weekdays but...

The FAQ says: What must I do to camp overnight in the parks?
Though permits are no longer needed for camping. We encourage all campers and park users to exercise courtesy toward others in carrying out their activities.

Hmmm...So what shall it be?? Lost... Please update your webby... You are getting me confused... Can't find that form to get permit anyway... so perhaps we don't need one?

Up next check out the death note showtime....

一个人的圣诞节。。。

Dear all! Merry Chirstmas! This is a time to remember to treasure all the important people around you! To note that they have always been around you when you need them...

To these people who are essential in my life, who makes it complete:
Thank you once again! From the bottom of my heart i wanna say " LOVE YOU, GUYS!" May you guys & your families have good health & truckloads of love!

Jin: Everything will work out just fine... Just take sometime to find what you really want...

Eve: It's time to have fun! Who needs boyfriends? We just need cute guys! Muackz! luvya to bits...

Li ling: Glad that everyone is unharmed... Let's meet up soon k?

Jean: The beauty of being single... You have showed me how it works.. hee

10: Gosh... We've gotta go back to school... Eeewww.... Let's have more fun before hell comes!

"木木"熊: Hee.. Kept you up all night.. Had fun on your b'day bash! Hope we've made it unforgetable! Won't get you drunk le lah.. I will try hard not to disturb you so much!

勇铨：Had plenty of fun with you people & of course there'll be more to come! Wonder when wil your gorgeous babe come to you?

Swee yee: Wow! Christmas in thailand! hmmm... Enjoyable trip i guess... (green with envy! I wanna go too... SHOPPING!)Missed you like hell.. now i do realise your importance!!! 原来你是那么重要的！


Muackz... With loads of hugs & kisses...

Why did it end up like that? Had a great day despite that!

不知道从何时开始，你对我有了这样的想法！我对你来说就只有这样的利用价值吗？我是你消遣的工具吗？对你是彻底的失望。。。真的以没有什么话好说了！不想再听到关于你的东西。。。你真的让我觉得很累！我受够了！Whatever happens to you is none of my business... You really do turn me OFF!!! I can't believe those words actually came out of your mouth! GOSH! You had the cheek to say that... 我认输了！

When Lot 1 for a KTV session with Miss Chua today.. Realy enjoyed myself though there was a tiny incident... The whole building blacked out. Scared me... haha... But luckily there were two of us. If i happened to be alone, What would i do?? Girl thanks for the birthday song k! Happy belated birthday to you too.... Hope you like the present... Thank you to that nice lady at Kbox too... Thanks for making it so sweet, lighted two candles in the room... haha...

Coffee & cake, best buddies & cute kids(+ dirty doggy) = wonderful combination...
A strong seabreeze & shorts not = good combination...
To sum it all up, I'll hang around with my best buds at coffee bean, talk & crap than to be bothered by some nonsense people! 心情不好出去兜兜风，说说话是最好的治疗！因为有了有趣的人就会把不开心的都忘掉！听着好听的歌，吹着冷冷的风，看这开心的朋友，一切事都忘了！It shall stay that way...

Gotta zzzzzzzz soon... My eyes can't stay open... Had a wonderful day! Thanks guys! sleep tight, sweet dreamz...

lazy, sleepy me...

hmmm... 最近的天气是最最适合睡觉的！！！ haha.. have been sleeping & lazing aroung for 2 days le... finally i decide to get my ass moving to town for dinner.. It's a pretty entertaining day actually... Poor YC had tears in his eyes while chewing his food... that poor guy is always sick... 隔两天就有新的病症。。。 What a poor boy.. Please take care of your health.. Anyway other than the chewing problem you look pretty fine to me.. haha... You & your stupid magic rope game.. Dumb of me... haiz.. I guess a con man never change his spots.. forgive you on account of that frozen yogurt lah.. I want my 冰淇淋 when you get well, k?

Anyway.. It' KTV with 蔡太太 tomorrow... so cya 蔡太！On friday it shall be a date with 滿城盡帶黃金甲... On saturday it'll be xiao xiong's 21st b'day bash!

Ps. When will we get that tent & go camping?? for those who dunno abt e idea, here's an update: we intend to gat a tiny bit of contribution from everyone to buy a tent & some food to go camping.. so exciting!!!

Pps. Lucy went to USA le.. Never tell any of us.. so mean of her!!! Boohoo...

Ppps. Won't be driving for awhile.. someone kissed my cutie car's ass! what a meanie!! Hope it'll be okie soon... i wanna drive to school... Btw, school's starting on 3rd january.. No more slacking!! must 加油！ I wanna be a grad next June..

classics.. people i love!

Bashful pics...

hmmm....

slept alot but i'm still so so tired... think i'm getting too lazy... gotta keep my butt going..

haha... had loads of fun @ my b'day bash.. though the attendance was pathetic but now i know that i can always have loads of fun with this few lovely, wonderful, gorgeous & handsome people...

又被放飛機。。。 doesn't feel good @ all... Gotta think what am i doing with my life.. I might want to do whatever i can for these people but are they wiling to do the same for me? Guess i've gotta treasure those people who really care for me... Whatever!?! 重要的是 i don't let these people down... the rest of them, it's kinda whatever... Perhaps i'm e one with the problem... lack of care & concern with their lives?

hmmmm... I'm getting lame...anyway, shall post e pics soon... i had tons of princesses & princes at my party.. don't worry k? i shall leave out all the paiseh ones. haha! If i do post them all, you guys would be the butt of the joke for a long time to come... thanks once again, for turning up & for e gift... muackz... luvya!

祝我生日快樂。。

Yippy... So happy... Ordered my gorgeous cake le... Wahahaha... Things seem to be going pretty smoothly for my birthday preparations... I'm so glad that all this people around me is helping me... Going shopping for chocolate later!! Still got plenty of barang to buy...

MUACKZ!! 愛你喔﹗﹗﹗

Ps. 陳勇銓先生﹐Thank you for e loan of that fountain.. muackz!
PPs. Dearest fairy godmother! Please ensure that this sunday (10th dec) is not a rainy day k?

tata! I'm going for a shower!!

What have i done?

This is juzt a form of expression
A way for people who care to know what's happenin'
It does not exist so that you can butt into my life
Reading this does not mean that you know me
so get out!!

Stop acting like i'm important
when your motive is not to see how i'm doing
It's to spy on the people aound me.
I want my freedom back!
The freedom to write as i wish
把我的自由還給我﹗﹗

祝我生日快乐。。。

生日礼物是什么？
生日party有谁来？
生日要吃什么？
好烦啊！！！

Hmmmm... You sound so sad! what happened? Care to share? What matters most is that you don't keep it to yourself... Sorry, didn't know you were unhappy eariler. Hope i didn't make your day worse! Cheer up, my friend!

Shocked...

Haiz.. got a shock of my life today... god... i was so sleepy (i still am) but i can't go back to sleep... haiz..

Don't you get it? I can't accept your gift? It's the thought that counts & I felt your sincerity. That is what that matters right? Will pass it back to you... I don't deserve it.. gosh.. I feel so sleepy now... nice weather to zzzzz....

Going to visit ice's grandma later... Gotta think of what i want for my birthday by tomorrow.. Actually, just want all my family & friends & their family to be healthy, happy & be able to enjoy life to the fullest!

如此困难的要求，我知道你们做不到。。。只想要你们快乐！ 因为你们快乐，我也会快乐。。。Cheers! muckz... Plenty of hugs & kisses to go around! (Mr tan will not get a hug cause he'll go "eeeee.... 你走开！！")

梦醒时，心好痛！

It hurts so bad now... I wanna say sorry! 《拥抱着 却格着最远的距离》I didn't mean to.. I wasn't thinking right at that point in time... I was dreaming but you were not in that sweet dream of mine... 很抱歉，但男主角并不是你。 是我错！我们也只能做一辈子的好朋友吧！

此刻从梦中惊醒的我是如此的心疼！对不起，伤害了你！我一早就该从梦中醒来。因为我的自私，然你受到了伤害。。。 真的很抱歉。。 没想过你对我还念念不忘。。。以为你和我的想法是一样的 but it's not! I really don't know what to say. It's all too late isn't it?

一辈子的好朋友~ 这句话让我好心酸。。。只因为我没勇气去面对！那就这样吧！也就只能做一辈子的好朋友。。。就算会心痛，就算眼泪会不由自主的落下， 我也会去面对！这是我的选择。。。

Ps. Thanks Mr Ee, for teaching us how to play pool..
have a good rest guys... muackz!

back from supper...

god... Had a paper prata with honey & a banana prata.. Yummy!!! so so so tired now... last task before i zzzzzzzzz..... is to edit my sis's report... gotta charge a fee for making me work OT.. i want to crawl onto my bed...

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz..........

Dreaming...

偶像剧看多了也会做梦的啦！I've been dreaming too often recently... Should wake up from my beautiful dream 了！ ANYWAY, I'M BACK!!!!

I spent like 700RM & i only came back with a head of curly hair, a pair of CUTE pokka-dot heels, a pair of GOLD flip flop & a couple t-shirts.. I also don't know where i spent the money..

WooHoo... A CUTE guy did my hair.. hahahahahaha... so so happy... Enjoyed e couple of hours doing my hair cause of that 亮仔！Anyway i think he didn't do a very good job lah.. Cause i look like a god damn AUNTIE now.... But he's forgiven cause he's cute... I believe what his 师父 say lah.. the curls will loosen out to be WAVES!! I certainly hope so...

我该从梦中醒来了！

好忙啊！！

Went out my date of the day in search of the perfect present for my gorgeous cousin Miss Yeo!! We walk, walk & walked... (oh gosh! my legs are still aching!) Finally, Mr tan decided to buy the XXXXXX at buttXXXXks... It's because he's a THOUGHTFUL & CARING guy(not thoughtful & caring about how my legs felt but... forget it!)

Enough about this horrid date of mine... I shall concentrate on thinking what to buy in M'sia... YIPPY!!!

I shall not gossip about Mr Tan anymore or i will be punished... I will neither promote nor demote Mr Tan... He's a topic i cannot talk about if not 我会惨遭天浅。。 god.. Why don't have that "qian"??

friends, coffee & nice long chats!

hee.. Just finish dinner... Went sun plaza for coffee with Jin & PX.. As usual, our "oh! I'm so shy," Mr nice guy got bullied by me.. haha... He turns red so easily... So fun to tease him! haha... Hmmm.. He's booking in today if not can go for supper together... Then i can tease him again...

Watched Colic with jin just now. PX had to go back to camp so he didn't join us. Those stupid, irritating NS man behind us were so childish! They don't know how to SHUT UP in a cinema! Gosh! Kids half their age are more well behaved! Answering their mobile in the cinema! To think that there was an ad about mobiles in cinema. I guess they just simply don't get it! haiz... Should have drag PX to the movie then there'll be someone to scream at them...

Lucky for me... the movie is not too bad... Better than that 鬼丝。If this is as bad then I'll have to swear off horror movies for awhile...

Gotta go & get Ms Yeo's 生日礼物 tomorrow! Wonder what should I get... Cracking my head now...

An adventure ahead!

Wahaha... I'll be going for a spin tomorrow! How fun will it be? Mr Ee ---> my "handsome man" street directory & jin ---> 勇敢的冒险家 will accompany me on my adventure tomorrow. How long will we take to reach pasir ris park? It's 10's b'day bash... YIPPY!! haha... Went shopping for her present today... As usual Mr tan was full of comments.. had BK for dinner.. Hmmm... the last time i had it was after a stupid paper! back to Ms tan's present:

Shhhh....
是个秘密！！ 哈哈。。。(though i like the other one better but the present is not for me!) It's pretty special.. I mean it's from US, how can it not be special? Anyway， 经过千辛万苦的挑选。。。 We finally decided on this unique bugger! Hope you'll like it.. Muackz..

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY, 10!!

ps: Mr Ee, we didn't mean to exclude you from anything! Sorry!
pps: Mr tan, you've got potential to be a 专业狗仔！ 加油吧！ I think you'll have a future in that... 哈哈哈~

所为麻烦的女人，要的也只不过如此！

看来很任性，很不可理喻，很无理取闹的女人，要的也只是：
~ 一颗真爱她心
~ 满满的爱与关心
~ 许多的安全感与鼓励
~ 些许的耐心与宠爱
~ 给她受到保护的感觉
~ 了解她，和她相处的时间
~ 一些些她自己的空间

看起来如此简单的几样东西，却让人们深深的误解了女人的心。。。对很多女人而言，这些东西是多没简单的啊！也许是因为每个女人需要的份量都不一样，所以才那么麻烦吧！我们一旦开始坐下来聊就没完没了。。。 男人总是觉得女人罗唆，其实是因为 we understand each other a lot better & loads faster... Men need time to bond over their soccer games & beer, we do the same. It's just that we take longer to bond over coffee & shopping (I mean you can't drink coffee & shop at the same time right??)... When we click, we seem to have endless things to talk about... That's what girlfriends are for.. That's what I love about being a girl! Except for that everytime of the month thingy which SUCKS!!!!

对我们所爱的人, 要求很简单，也许需要一点时间了解后才知道该如何是好。。。How long it takes depends on the individual.. Guys, it helps if you have a close girl friend cause that will shorten the time considerably.. (provided your girlfriend doesn't get jealous of your girl friend lah! If not, then you can smell trouble!!)

一个女人的直觉 AKA so called "instution" 是很敏锐的。。。至少我认为是这样的！ 我知道我曾经真心的付出过，也曾拥有他的真心，但如今的我厌倦了。。。 再也不想去猜想你的脑子里到底在想什么！ 也不想再去想该这么做才是对你最好的！因为我觉得你连你自己想要什么都不懂。。。。 我又该如何去猜想呢？至少我懂我要的是什么。。。我知道我撑不住了，累了还是学会放手比较好！再拖拖拉拉也没有意思，不如就这样吧~

放手至少还留下了活口，我们都可以从新再来。。。人生不就是这样吗？失败了就从新在来。。 所为失败奈成功之母。。。 We just gotta learn to live with what we have done... Gotta face reality!

成長的過程。。。

Just heard something & i thought it's really interesting & meaningful so i'm sharing it with you guys...

《重要的不是已經犯下的失誤﹐而是失誤後面對的勇氣﹗》
It's so amazing, one short sentence that explain a whole lot of stuff... 感觸好生啊~

What a familiar scent...

Just met Ms yeo... Finally i caught a sight of her mysterious BF.. Quite good looking lah... haha.. they looking pretty cute together! Anyway, i left them alone to 甜蜜密。。。 I don't wanna be a 电灯泡！！ haha.. I think Lawerence(her BF) was kinda shocked cause we look quite alike but our personality is so different... I should be used to it by now... Everyone says we look alike... 她是我的姐妹，so it's ok... Glad to have a 姐妹like her any day, anytime... We can read each other's mind so very often...

Hmmmm... I caught a familiar scent when i was on the train, on my way back home... A scent that tiggered alot of memories... A scent that made me realise something back then.. A scent that tiggered a series of arguement... 算了吧！都已经过了那么久了，这么还放不下？ 从前如此洒脱的我跑到那里去了？

陈先生！！ 不要生气了啦！！不要那么小气嘛！！您大人有大量， 不会跟可爱的jin计较的啦！！ 啸啸气啦！！嗨呀，真是头痛！We also don't what to do when you are mad... We assume you are lah.. Cause based on our careful observations, the odds are 99 out of 100 that you are angry... haiz.. Don't know what to do le lah.. 真无奈啊~


Anyway.. I'll be catching a movie with angel tomorrow! I hope it'll be nice... muackz... nitey people~ Tomorrow will be a better day!

Yippy... What a happy day...

Ah dong went to learn parking today!!! haha.. I did not crush my brother & i did not ruin the car!! maybe i did scratch the rims lah.. But i guess everyone did that before.. I don't care lah.. Just glad that i finally can park the car.. I know i'll be constantly lost & therefore be late if i do drive out but it's ok... It's Ah dong you are talking about! So pls lower your expectations... hehee..

Anyway, i'm going to meet my dearest cousin, Ms yeo for coffee later... Mr tan, don't say i never jio k! We'll be at sun plaza.. Wanna join us?

I need time...

Just reached home... Had supper with steph at Mac just now... As i walked home alone, i couldn't help myself but recall that faithful day. It was exactly how i felt at that point in time, lonely & sad... The street was empty... And there i walked alone, back to my house, not accepting what has happened.. Now i'm only left with all those if i.. If, what a powerful word. If only i was wise enough to listened to your mum & left you alone to do whatever you wanted to... If only...

Since it is the past then there's no point with thinking all those "only ifs" cause today we can only be strangers. No matter how much we try to act normally around each other, it still turns out wierd cause some things can never be forgotten... Everytime I see or hear news about you, it still stings but I've just gotta face the fact that you have moved on, & I should also be doing the same... Whether I like it or not the earth is still spinning, time is still flying by! I gotta learn how to move on, to fall in love again, to trust someone so much again.... It's tough but I believe I can do it... I just need time...

心还是会痛，但日子依然还是要过。。。 为了不要再让关心我的人担心，我也只好努力坚强的继续生活。。。我相信我可以做到的！！ 加油！！！

灰灰的天气。。。

Oh... What nice weather for me to lazy around & curl up on my bed... How i wish i could... but today is Pricillia's 21st b'day!! Happy birthday girl! muackz.. cya later at MOS k!

灰灰的天气， 懒懒的心情。。。

偶遇。。。

为什么曾经如此相爱的两个人，如今的偶遇会是如此的陌生？ 难道他就是所谓的“最熟悉的陌生人"?
《曾经孤单加上孤单是爱火 烧过你和我 如今沈默加上沈默更沈默 再没有什舍不得》也许我和他就是如此吧！ 所为的天时，地意，人合， 我想当时我们也只有人合吧！ 在当下的我们是如此的深爱着那十八，九岁的彼此。。。我们随着时间而变化，但我们变化的速度却不一。。。 所以就沦落到今天这种局面！彼此也都没什么话好说 了吧！

when bowling with YC, PX, Mr Ee, jin, Wen Shan & YC's cousin today! Actually I didn't intend to bowl, just wanted supper.. 哈哈！I'm a glutton as usual.. But something unexpected happened! 哇哈哈！吓倒了吧！终于见识到我的利害了吧！hehee... Finally i'm doing better... I'm so happy!! So i do know more than shopping, eating & sleeping.. Cause now, I can bowl!!! Watch out! I'll get better!! 原来这世界上真的没有做不到的事！ 至少也要去尝试啊！ You'll never know if you never try! I tried, so now I know i can bowl! hehee.. So so happy... Further more， all of us condemn Mr Tan, our beloved driver, today.. haha.. So happy! For once, all of us work so hard for a common goal that is to condemn YC! hehee... Kidding lah... Just happy to see the con man being punished! 陈先生那么宽容大量，不会和我们一般见识的啦！对不对，陈董？哈哈~ (That's the punishment for leaving Jin & me there for so long!! 女人是绝对不可以惹的！)

Anyway, Thanks for the ride. And thank you for organising the trip to genting. I know it's hardwork! So if there's anything i can do to help, pls do let me know k? MUACKZ!!

Love you guys for always being there for me, & for adding endless laughter in my life.

What a day...

hmm... Met angel today.. It has been so long since i last met her... 好想她啊！ Had a long and good chat wth her... Missed the good old days when we would just sit and talk for god knows how many hours... Anyway, i'm so glad that we have achieved what we set out to do... YIPPY!! I shall cya on sat k... MUACKZ! 爱你！

莫名奇妙的觉得好心酸啊。。。 这么会那么不公平啊。。。我想这也是没办法的吧！没人说过这世界是公平的啊！但你就这样任命吗？连蚂蚁都会做摧死的振扎，难道你连蚂蚁都不如吗？I never thought it'll end like that... All I can say is don't give up without a fight k? Where is that fighting spirit in you? Ain't you the one who never gives up without a fight? What happened? Where's that never say die attitude? This world is never fair! Nobody said it is! So you gotta fight for what you want, for what you believe in! This is life... 加油吧！I still believe you didn't do it. And I know you'll not admit to something that you've never done. If you have done it, you would have confessed a long time ago... Don't give up now! 加油!

我真的没有那么宽容。。。

我就是我，如此的直接，如此的真。。。 我不喜欢躲躲闪闪的过着日子。 不是因为我不懂得体谅别人的感受而是因为我不想 make things worse... 也许一走了之不是办法但我真的忍不住了。。我看起来很好欺负吗？ How could you do that? Is your EQ really that low? oh god... You really do drive me crazy... but this will be the last time you ever will... 我不会再让你看笑话了！！ Only in your dreamz.. Never will it happen again.... 我累了。。不想再和你玩了。。 你连自己要什么都不懂。。 So don't drag me into it... It's not my fault that you can't make up your mind.. If you can't take me as a friend then said so... I'm not your toy! I don't exist so that you can play with my feelings... 说一套，作揖套。。。你还真的是见人说人话，见鬼说鬼话。。。。真的好神奇啊！ Now that I really seen your true colours, I shall leave you in my past as a classical case of 爱错！

learn to let go, gal!

haiz... just talked to daffy... i just wanna say that no matter how much you love her, you've gotta learn to let go... she can always have a space in your heart and you can also choose to wait for her. just remember that it takes two hands clap. You may not believe it but it's true that time heals all wounds... give yourself plenty of time... Time for you to heal, to learn, to find yourself again..

yippy... KTV later.. Xiong ge ge jio 1 leh... Mr lee also know how to jio us for a KTV session... WOW!!! what a surprise!! hehee.. it's a rare occassion for Mr Lee to sing...

hahahaha... EXAMZ R OVER!!

hey ya!!! It's time 2 celebrate cause my examz are over... Woohoo!! i've slept for 15 hours but i'm still so so so tired... haiyo...

when 2 meet eve after my paper yesterday.. thought i'll be dead beat but amazingly i survived till about 2 am... haha... we had a late lunch @ pastamania cenileisure than we went shopping.. or rather i accompany her to go shopping... haha.. under my influence, she bought a micro- mini skirt!! haha... had many wonderful conversations with her.. my best buddy ever.. think she's gg to N.Y tonite... hope it'll be a good flight with plenty of nice people.. hee...

oh god.. i'm still so tired but i'm kinda amazed that my body could survive so long.. i can tell you that i didn't wanna get up just now.. it's just because i'm so goddamn hungry & thirsty... now that i've had my dinner & watched e tv, i wanna glue my body back 2 my bed.. haha...

i think i'm going 2 spent some time letting my body recover from this round of trauma.. my body will be grateful for it.. yawn yawn.. i can't take it anymore... i'm going back 2 slp (i just woke up like 3 hours ago).. nitez people...

i had a bad day which ended up fine... all thanks to..

wahahaha... E paper today was horrid... i predicted e questions, i prepared e answers but i didn't memorise it well enough! And there was no time for me to recall... haiyo! 20 mins to answer a 20 mark question... did the lecturer who set this rule attempt to finish the paper within the time limit? He/ she must have been through the same shit and wants to torture us the same way.. sob sob sob sob... sob sob sob sob.. so depressed over this paper... i was so frighten during the paper that i couldn't write properly! i guess in the end there's no 1 to blame but me... haiz... what's done cannot be undone... feel like crying e whole day.. i just wanna break down but i can't cause i'm so scare that i'll sleep for a long time after crying then i'll have no time for biz finance... just 2 more days then i can let it all go..

i met 2 very sweet cab drivers today.. but i don't remember their license plate...

THANK YOU!!

cab uncle no 1: so sweet of you to ask me to take care while crossing the road...

cab uncle no 2: thanks for reversing just to pick me up.. i know you had to rush to another location to pick someone up... but you reserved illegally on e rd to pick me up cause i was standing in e rain.. THANKS..

I.O: thanks for wishing me luck for my paper... it's really nice of you...

you guys made my day, you guys made it better... loads better... for that, i thank you! hope you guys had a nice day too... LOOK OUT! many more nice days ahead!!

i feel so sad... for him and for myself.. i saw how the IO reacted when he knew you had a illness.. and yet, i cannot blame him for acting like that. cause i know i would have reacted the same way if i didn't know you as well as i do... i know it's difficult but try to ignore people's (meanie's) reaction.. cause they are not what that matters most. what matters most is that the people who care for you, believe in you... don't give up on yourself k. Hope, wish and pray.. Hope is what alot of people are living for...

Sorry, i can only remind you of the past.. a not very happy past.. We made a mistake together... we took each other for granted... now that we have realised the mistake, let's all change for the better together... I still care but i'm sure if i had a chance to start all over again, i'll still make the same mistake. Cause i'm in e process of 'changing for the better' ( i hope) but i'm not sure if i'm there yet... yet, i'm sure we'll be better friends than boy-girlfriends.... so let's b friends...

we all make mistakes, some tiny ones & some changes your entire life. we made a huge mistake that changed both our lives... Some people live in regret for making that kind of mistakes but i'll go on in life cause i learnt my lesson & i wanna see if i ever make it again.. I'll take my chances by facing what i did... i hope you will not give up... i sense that you really realised your mistake this time round. i hope you'll be given a chance... Take care, my friend...

Mr Tan: so sorry for e misunderstanding.. i know her friend couldn't meet her last minute that's why she decide to join us.. You didn't lie.. sorry for being so mean that day... sorry for hanging up on you.. it was so rude of me.. Thanks for forgiving me... hee... it's so nice of you...

TO: ALL E PPL WHO LOVE & CARE FOR ME
THANK YOU - for taking e time & effort to make me part of your life. For showering me with care & concern, for encouraging me when i'm down & out, for lending me a shoulder to lean on, for praying that i will pass my examz. Most of all... thanks for accepting me for who i am.. e noisy n irriating gal who is also sturbborn, short tempered, petty & mean at times.. thanks for accepting all my short comings... if u ever feel that i'm taking u 4 granted, i'm sorry... pls tell me.. i'll remember 2 try not be so mean...
i love u!! muacks..... my thanks along with plenty of warm hugs n kisses....

i feel so many things all at once..

hmmm.. i guess i'm too stressed out... i wanna let go of all this stress cause right now i'm acting like a stretched rubber band. i know it sounds wierd but i've got alot of stuff figured out during this stressful period. i think it's because i overloaded my tiny, pinky, brain & it got fried.. haha.. then i become smarter! (so lame but whatever.. that's me!)

i realised trust is so goddamn important in relationships -- it doesn't matter whether it's between friends, BF & GF or family.. Trust is e word! Once i couldn't trust & now i know without it, there's nothing to talk about. E numerous examples that i have seen proved that but will i always remember it? i certainly hope so.

I figured out why i wanna get a BF when i'm single & why i wanna be a single when i'm attached. The reason being:

a couple in love > Single > an unhappy couple

A lovely equation create by joyzz! haha! To think of it, it's really simple. why didn't i realise it sooner? Two people unhappy in their relationship always think that it's better to be a singleton while a single is always envious of a loving couple.

What i want & NEED to do after examz ( oh god, i actually have a plan!):
~Clubbing
~KTV
~Sleep
~Cycling @ whatever park
~Roti prata for supper--> *hint hint wink wink* Y.C
~Catch up with daffy
~Go Ms Yeo's house to slack, enjoy & have fun

To eve: i'm so sorry i can't be enjoying with you during your leave. i feel so bad about it. so i'm going to shower you with *HUGS 'N' KISSES*.. haha.. will spend alot more time with ya when my examz are over. Luvya!! *MUACKZ* make it up to you when we can go clubbing together k. We'll have a hair raising time together.

There something i really wanna say to this other friend of mine...
"yes, i think of you as a friend now. If you ever see this, pls remember that i believe you. i know what happened, & i know you feel like giving up now. i'm so sorry i can't be there for you. i feel so bad but i think i'm not one person who can be there for you. believe me when i say i'll pray for you. As your friend, if you treat me as one, i don't wanna see you like that. If you feel uncomfortable after reading this, i'm sorry. i just want you to be fine."

My words of encouragement to him: "hey, pls take care of yourself. you've still got people trusting & believing you. so don't give up! Pls do not give up! once you give up, there's nothing left for them to fight for! I know you understand what i'm saying but it's a matter of whether will you do anything about it. i believe you didn't do it so don't give up on yourself."

I wanna thank all my friends out there for being so forgiving

towards me even when i'm mean. If i ever let you guys feel

taken for granted, pls let me know... cause I'm sorry...

MUACKZ! Luvya.. & i hope u guys luv me too... hee (^_^)

Lucy says HI!!

had a chat with my beloved poodle, lucy just now and she says hi!! especially to all e birthday boys and girls (Jean, Mr Ee and Mr Tan).. feeling so tired now but at least e project is sort of almost done.. still got some loose ends to tied up and we are done..

It not like it alot better cause e examz are coming but just look on the bright side lah.. lucy's examz will only end on the 22nd of nov... i was irritated by a 4000 word report while she has a 6000 word one to complete.. I gotta realise how lucky i am...

It's always till when things are gone, before we learn how important it is to treasure what you have... It's not good to be too greedy, I should be happy with what I have cause there are two sides to every coin...

To all my friends out there:

I LOVE YOU!!

Pls take care..

till e next time we meet, so long..

with loads of hugs & kisses (MUACKZ)

trip 2 e park

Just finished bathing.. i smell so nice... haha (^_^)
When to Pasir ris park with my lovely driver Mr Tan Y.C and my beloved cousin Ms Yeo... haha.. went cycling... haven't been doing it for a long long long time... i acted like a kid.. A trip to e playground... haha.. swings and all.. it was loads of fun with so many adorable kids there.. after that it was a trip to find good food!!

i guess i was suppose 2 exercise to keep fit but i think i gain more fat in e end...

2 glasses of iced lemon tea,

a chicken cutlet &

a spicy piece of stinkray shared by all...

that was dinner and now, i'm thinking of supper !! more food... i gotta gain some weight after all.. haha.. piggy out on watermelon juice now.... supper.. yum!