damn it... y does it haf 2 b like tat?

he called mi yesterday... e whole point of e conversation being: is there anything he can do 2 make mi feel beta?

u noe wat? tis whole time all he wanted 2 do was 2 make mi feel happier... i was still thinking tat he still loves mi, juz tat he made a mistake tat's all... wanna make mi feel beta? wat a joke? if u can turn back time n make tis a dream, den do it...

e whole point in tis, is tat U wanna make urself feel beta but in e process, u r making mi feel worse... got it? since u haf e guts 2 do it den live wif e consequence... feeling too guilty? den wat u wan mi 2 do?? asshole.. stop making my life worse den it already is, will u?? i feel like killing u!! but wat does it achieve? tat's where i'm different frm u!! although i follow my heart, I DO THINK ABT WAT HAPPENS NEXT!!! u dun.. u juz act like a wilful kid n think tat everything will b okie no matter wat... e true is u juz cannot deal wif wat u haf done... all tis time, u haf been making urself so comfortable in going wif e flow tat u dun stop n think abt wat u r doing... u juz do wat u wan, hurting alot of ppl in e process! u dun care abt e ppl around u... u r so selfish... u make ur problem every1's problem... tat's e true u! we cannot b frenz anymore... i think i'll b beta off without a fren like u... bye... u piece of shit... i'm no longer willing 2 b part of ur problem anymore... leave mi out of it, will u?

i wanna b like yong chuan... forgive n forget but tat doesn't mean, i can or i will b able 2 pretend tat none of tis happened... it's so nice 2 b forgiving... hee.. but since i cannot do it, i shall not force myself... i can forgive u, manfred but i cannot forget... n stop doing so much wrong tat i haf 2 keep forgiving u, will u? i meant every word i said...... u haf 2 learn how 2 face wat has happened... i noe i'm not gd @ it but @ least i faced wat happened... i live wif it... it's part of my life n tis will b a story wif sumthing i can learn frm... i cannot say if it's good or bad but i've grown up becuz i haf 2 face tis... if i could i would choose b a kid forever... since i cannot, i'll haf 2 accept wat life throws in my way... dun repeat tis mistake again.. its bad enuff 2 do it once... 1 day, wen u r able 2 face tis, u'll b a beta man... n by den, i'll b happie 4 u frm e bottom of my heart...