i'm upset...

haiz... y muz i b stuck in sumthing like tat? e relatopnship btn us! wat does he take mi 4? a substitute wen they argue? (btw, seriously, 2 all those who no3 who she is, i dun wanna hear anything abt her, ok??) i hate 2 think abt it but it's driving mi crazy.... i hate myself 4 acting like tat... i'm upset wen he calls but i miss him wen he doesn't, it's driving mi crazy.. been trying 2 put up a strong front.. maybe wat i nid is a shoulder 2 cry on..
tis is how it ends wen there a 3rd party involved.. he has a back-up, sum 1 2 hug, cuddle n talk 2 but i dun haf 1.. haiz..

he told mi he's not happie (i feel like smacking him! freaking ASSHOLE!!!)

my reply 2 tis is: izzit tis wat u wanted both mi n her? u r having e best of both worlds now! u made tis mess wif ur own hands, be it u like it or not, u r happie or not, u've gotta accept it cuz u made it tis way... i've nv wanted things 2 end up like tat, but wat can i do? i've gotta live wif e fact tat i've loved a guy (whom every1 tells mi) tat doesn't deserve mi.. wat can i do? i love him... i gotta live wif e fact tat e guy tat i once gave everything 2 is a flirt n tat he doesn't luv mi as much as he claims.. i'm alot worse den u r (emotionally) so dun complain k!! JERK!! U R 1, DUN DENY! 4 all tat u did 2 mi, u r definately 1.

"If i could turn back time i would never have accepted u, Manfred! Cuz all e fun n luv u, once gave is not enuff 2 heal all e wounds u inflicted on my heart... i can nv forget e times we shared, e special memories tat r once in a lifetime but i'll learn 2 let go cuz u r not worth all e tears i've cried, all e heartache i'm suffering, all e love tat i have given... i'll always remember wat u did 2 mi.. 2 her i wanna say: gal, take sumthing tat's not urs n u'll find tat 1 dae sum1 will do e same 2 u! e same 2 u, JERK!!