found sumthing back...

was crying like crazy abt 3hrs ago... cried 4 an hour... crying over wat? i haf no idea... haha... actually.. i miss him lah... i miss his laughter, hugs & kisses... so i did wat i shld... solve e problem @ its root... wahaha... i called him [i already hear all e boos n all e wat e hell!!] i noe u guys think i'm so weak blah blah blah... i dun care... i do wat i wan... tat's mi... i'm not as strong as u guys think... i do cry! [yes, u heard mi...] i do feel lost... i nid ppl 2 guide mi 2 find my way back 2 wherever i belong [god noes where...] haha... i dun care.. we r all lost... let's find a map together... haha... cuz i cannot b left alone... i constantly search 4 frenz cuz i can't b alone... i feel so happie wen i haf alot of ppl 2 tok 2... hee... tat's where my happiness lies... i can't stop toking... wahaha... everybody has a limit n where is e limit i dunno...

aft i tok 2 him, i realised tat he's not happie either... [tat doesn't mean tat we'll b happie together, yes i noe] i dun hate him... he made a mistake n i forgive him... sumtimes it's not e kinda mistake he makes it's how much u wanna forgive him tat matters... i forgive u... i still care 4 u... but... love has impaired my rationality.... haha... n scientist prove tat love does has e ability 2 do it... haha... read it frm sumwhere... [yes... i love 2 read... no textbooks pls...] i still luv him... now i noe... i dunno how long i can hang on in tis state but... 4 now, i still love him...

my dear boy... dun feel so lost... i'll b here... it'll b over soon n u'll b happie again... smile... laugh @ all e dumb things tat i can nv understand... it's ok... it's ur own entertainment... enjoy skool... becuz u r in skool n transpot is cheap!! world cup... it's once every 4 years... enjoy...

dear all... i noe u r will always b there 2 support mi no matter wat my decision might be... i, myself think tat it's amazing tat i dun blame him... 1 day i will not blame her or myself either... i'll choose 2 forget... i'll choose 2 think tat tis world is beautiful... call mi naive... i juz wanna c tis world in a beta light... i'm gg 2 do wat i like... wat i enjoy... time passes faster tis way... i wish tat evrything will b well 4 all of u 2... i luvya...