i care too much about the people around me? actually i'm just taking the shortest route out! i don't wanna be nagged so i do what i'm told.. i feel so upset.. has any of those people who care SO SO SO SO much abt me [AKA my parents] asked me how i feel and what i want? they just do as they please... den why be bothered with my problems? since you all don't care how it is solved, you just want it solved [if i don't exist, the problem wouldn't either]... Is that the best for me??
He has no one there for him [not someone whom he wants anyway...] and i just wanna be there for him... Cause i feel the same... He just needs someone who needs him.. I don't need advice, I need some one who wants to listen to what i have to say... i need to feel needed... i don't know who am i anymore... i can't be bothered to find myself cause i don't know where to start... i'm just so lost.. i just wanna find a hole and hide.. running is not e solution blah blah blah... maybe running away from all this is what i need...
we humans are jus using each other.. we need each other to survive.. then why do i not feel needed? i need company, i need a hug now.. all this tears flowing out... for what? i don't know.. i'm just so unhappy.. even my PC is bullying me.. it's craping me..
i know this is part and parcel of life and i'll feel better when this is all over but when?? there's always a but behide all the good news.. i've always been impatient with everything i do.. when i can't decide, i just grab the nearest one.. Is god trying to teach me patience? Did i just make it tougher for myself? i don't know... hell with it.. i don't care.. I tried to be a saint and apparently i'm not one.. so i will not act like one anymore. you shall do as you please and i will do the same...
There was once back in time, when we were inter-dependent on each other.. Along the way, we lost ourselves and parted ways. It is till now that we realise the importance of each other.. It is till now that i know we cannot be together because.. we don't have a chance anymore... i will move on because i have to... It has all been too painful! perhaps i'll be able to find happiness and learn how to treasure it... but it is you who taught me how to love and for that i'll always remember you.. You know you'll always have a special place in my heart!
I need him in my life or rather, life was lot better with him around [ when he was not fooling around].. now i'm all alone.. i need a boyfriend [ just kidding! i lost a person whom i love deeply... i don't know how will i love again...]but first i need to learn how to trust... then i need the right guy to appear.. [haha.. preferbly tall, cute and rich!! i'm dreaming once again..] As usual... my plan is not to plan anymore cause nothing goes according to my plan.. It's too perfect, i live in a world where there are butterflies and everything nice... I live in my dream...
Moral of the story: a dream will only be a dream.... [ @ least in my case...]
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