i've been fooled by a jackass!

i've heard enough of ur lies! all along u haf been fooling me... i placed so much trust in u n what did u do 2 e trust i gave u? i cannot differenciate e truth from all e lies that u haf told me. i'm so tired of being your clown! i had enough! i really did!

i know there'll be people who will blame me for whatever that happened but what can i do? [blame all u want, it makes no difference to me.. not anymore] if they were in my shoes, what would they have done? i know what i did was survival instinct! i was so afraid, so scared... now i really know that it is good to be alive... i know what i have done might not be the best solution to this problem but at least there's a SOLUTION now... i have been trying 2 be nice 4 so long, n what did i get? my world IS NOT full of butterfiles n everything nice, its just that i choose 2 see e nicer part of human life. [if i don't see the bad, how do i know what's good?] u had a choice n u chose this so don't tell me...

u r always forgiven when u create trouble. u just don't know how 2 appreciate all e things u have... y be envious of things that people have? will u get what u want by just being envious? u just got to thank god that u have what u have...

finally for once in my life i just spill all e shit out 2 my parents! i know they are worried n i know they will worry whether i tell them or not... i know i scare e hell out of them but... haiz.... i'm their daughter after all... finally they are honest with me... thanks 4 everything! i know u all gave in 2 me all e time because u guys love me... i'm your daughter! i don't want to let u guys worry about me all e time either but... just feel so bad!

uncle n auntie, if u ever do read this... all i can say is sorry... i never wanted any of this 2 happen.. i know u love your son n i love him too... i don't want to harm him [never ever would i do that]... u may think this is all bullshit but u know your son even though he had plenty of friends there are alot of things that he never told anyone [i'm included]... he has lied 2 me so many times that i don't know what to do... i tried everything i could, i really tried... he needs help... i don't know how but... we have something in common, we all love your son... when u love someone, u will never want to harm him! i really thank you for all e care n concern u have showered on me... i really thank you...