u once said "i'll always be there for u..." is there any truth in these words? i don't know... i don't believe anymore... in u, in love...
u said " i'm always there for u when u needed me but were u there for me?" u assumed that u were always there for me but when i really needed u, were u there?
"will being there for u help @ all?" it will not cause now it doesn't matter anymore... i gotta move on, with or without u! i gotta move on cause the world will not spinning because of me.
i have been a fool, i know... i will learn 2 be a better person, i will try to help in whatever ways i can... till e day when i give up, till e day i die [i don't know when]... i don't know if what i did is right [i don't know if there's a absolute right or wrong] but i really don't want things 2 end up like that...
to him... if u r reading this, i want to let u know that:
- i love u, i still do... [i know i'm dumb... i wanted to hug u & tell u that but i did & will not have a chance]
- i really want u to be happy [ i don't know how to make u happy, cause only u noe how to make yourself happy]
- i don't want to get u into any trouble [i know it sounds lame but..]
- i know she is e 1 u love now.... [i'm jealous but what can i do?]
- i hope u will be alright [i know i can never be e 1 u want talk to when u encounter problems but i hope u can find someone whom u can talk to... i know i might & probably will not hear from u again so i want to tell u that i know i'm part of your past & i will stay in your past.]
- i will cry again for u if u get into trouble or if u end your life [althought u r not worth it... there's alot of things that i can't explain.]
i'm so sad & hurt cause i never expected that we will end like that. u will make a good husband if the earth could stop spinning @ that point in time when we were so in love.... if i had married u then & everything else remain constant, i will be e happiest women on earth [i know i will]. Never did i once regret acceptting u in my life [i might have my doubts but i never did regret]. i thank you for all e tender love & care u once showered me with. i thank you for making me part of your life. i thank you for all e time we had together. u r special & u always will be... because u brought joy to my life, u made me grow up & view life differently. i want to see u again but yet i'm so afraid of seeing u... one day i will face u again, i just don't when... i will always remember u...
don't hate me....
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