my blog is just a form of expression!

hmmm... i don't what 2 say but all i know is that this is one place for me 2 vent my frustrations n tell ppl abt what's gg on wif my life. this is definately not a place for u ppl 2 read up n worry abt me... i'm ok... i will be... i don't mean 2 cause any of u 2 get worked up... i'll cheer up n that will take time... i know u all care 4 me n that's why u guys get worked up... thanks 4 all e care n concern... i'll b ok....

esp. 2 u, Mr YC!! i WILL be ok... i mean u know me 4 so long le... i'll brave it all out in e end... i'm no hero, i do break down n cry... when i do cry, it's just a form of expression, an emotional release... it means that i'm unhappy but aft crying i do feel better.. so it's ok... don't ask me not 2 care abt him, it's just like asking u 2 stop caring 4 your princess X.Y... it's difficult isn't it? so it's not easy for me either... i might be strong but i still need time 2 heal...no one can tell me how long 2 take, what 2 do etc... running is not a solution. u agree rite? sometimes i'm just tired of facing everything head on, i break down n take time 2 feel sorry 4 myself... sooner or later, i'll pick myself up n move on again... it's part of a process in my life... just want u 2 understand! listen to Tong En's "yi xia xia" perhaps u'll get what i'm saying..

[my dearest boy... don't be sad... i'm here rooting 4 u... i might not be right beside u now but i care, i'm anxious abt u... i'm so sorry, i left u alone but what's e use of sorry? i cannot change what i have done, all i can do is apologise for my mistake n hope that u'll forgive me... u must learn how 2 take good care of yourself k? be a good boy... do u know that u are so cute n lovable when u try n be an angel? although u might smell wierd but... nvm.. private joke! haha... u'll stay here, in my heart...]

["..even if u took my heart n tore it apart, i will love u still forever..." from e song "forever" by Damage... do u mean it? or u did not hear that part or u still love me but u don't forgive me?]